Sunday, May 22
cracking under pressure.
i had a hard journey recently , almost like as if i was walking on glass . trying a new course of route only to realize i'm not gonna want that for myself , lost my ic and atm cards thn learning how to get the replacements , holding on and letting go of kinship , scrimping and syringing only to hope i could withstand till the end of the month .
well , alot alot alot ALOT of things happened . i'm too lazy to explain . my mother's now waiting for her hubby to give her money enough for her to save up alot alot , but my father says he's waiting for her to die .. which is quite true because when she dies , this house would be his , none of my business and maybe , none of my sis's business too . she backstabs me in front of my father , she gives me money trying to act like a good hearted .. and when she's unhappy with me , she relies on her husband as a back up , and go all the way to drop me .
my superior made me feel like she's gonna teach me , but it was just an illusion . she only reveals when it's of advantage to her , just like any other typical money-maker . that one bit was sufficient enough to make me retreat in this bond which we met for only 3 times , hanging only on the strands of investment . i thought it was gonna really be something big , really sincere and fruitful , but i was wrong . it was all just an illusion .
and it's been more than a month since my used-to-be-gf-cum-sister-cum-bff talked to me . after all that "talk to me when you're single" and "my bf dusn like you that much either" , flushhh .. everything's down the toilet bowl and .. no more .
money isn't a good thing . i'd rather live in those days which i wasn't independent , wasn't knowledgeable , wasn't able to protect myself , and just within their reach . guess that's what they mean by ignorance is bliss .
i had a hard journey recently , almost like as if i was walking on glass . trying a new course of route only to realize i'm not gonna want that for myself , lost my ic and atm cards thn learning how to get the replacements , holding on and letting go of kinship , scrimping and syringing only to hope i could withstand till the end of the month .
well , alot alot alot ALOT of things happened . i'm too lazy to explain . my mother's now waiting for her hubby to give her money enough for her to save up alot alot , but my father says he's waiting for her to die .. which is quite true because when she dies , this house would be his , none of my business and maybe , none of my sis's business too . she backstabs me in front of my father , she gives me money trying to act like a good hearted .. and when she's unhappy with me , she relies on her husband as a back up , and go all the way to drop me .
my superior made me feel like she's gonna teach me , but it was just an illusion . she only reveals when it's of advantage to her , just like any other typical money-maker . that one bit was sufficient enough to make me retreat in this bond which we met for only 3 times , hanging only on the strands of investment . i thought it was gonna really be something big , really sincere and fruitful , but i was wrong . it was all just an illusion .
and it's been more than a month since my used-to-be-gf-cum-sister-cum-bff talked to me . after all that "talk to me when you're single" and "my bf dusn like you that much either" , flushhh .. everything's down the toilet bowl and .. no more .
money isn't a good thing . i'd rather live in those days which i wasn't independent , wasn't knowledgeable , wasn't able to protect myself , and just within their reach . guess that's what they mean by ignorance is bliss .
i love you like i always do.9:49 PM.
