Monday, April 18
and now i realize ..
Sometimes , you hate someone so much it turns out that you’re defending yourself from all the mistakes .. and it’s when you give up defending yourself and start trying to understand what went wrong , you realize that the other party actually felt the same , they’re hating you too .
Blinded by emotions , we often get so caught up we overlook others’ feelings , feelin it’s reasonable . yes , there’s no 100% foolproof solutions to make everyone happy , but at least , you do what’s best for the situation , not because you feel happier that way , but because things would work out to be better , from there , someday ..
Now , as I’m busy and caught up in my mundane life , I start to wear out . in many ways and reasons that’s possible , I am finally stopping down , finally feeling some “aftermath effect” I once mentioned .
Don’t go “HAHA ! SERVES YOU RIGHT !” at me . cuz if that’s what you want to do , don’t ever let me find out .. I won’t take revenge or beat you up , but i don’t need that kind of comments from you . I once said this to someone “I just feel damn screwed up and hopeless now ..” .. guess when was the reply ?
“enjoy then ~”
Yes , I was lost . I wasn’t able to handle my own emotions and the only way I see the light is by going insane , acting like I’d never felt anything before , like as if nothing had ever affected me .
That , is the time you see me strongest .. only because you know me that much .
As I listen to some of the songs , and feel the hatred bugging me .. I still hate guys who are ego , speaks with no actions , yet snobs about it . to me , no matter how good you are at something , what you should do is still be humble , help those around you to be as good at it , and create fun with the lead you’re having . it’s not about competition , not about who gets more praises , who is more of a lion , but how you want to be remembered , how you choose to use the conscience and moral you know about .. into use .
i make wrong decisions , a lot .and my friends around me ask .. why do you always make the same old mistakes despite falling so hard on it ?
this , is to tell you that while you heave a sigh of relieve about not having to stick with me forever , did you think about what my friends would say about you ? they’re not saying these not because they don’t know the situation , but because they know me better than you do .
hmms ..
Sometimes , you hate someone so much it turns out that you’re defending yourself from all the mistakes .. and it’s when you give up defending yourself and start trying to understand what went wrong , you realize that the other party actually felt the same , they’re hating you too .
Blinded by emotions , we often get so caught up we overlook others’ feelings , feelin it’s reasonable . yes , there’s no 100% foolproof solutions to make everyone happy , but at least , you do what’s best for the situation , not because you feel happier that way , but because things would work out to be better , from there , someday ..
Now , as I’m busy and caught up in my mundane life , I start to wear out . in many ways and reasons that’s possible , I am finally stopping down , finally feeling some “aftermath effect” I once mentioned .
Don’t go “HAHA ! SERVES YOU RIGHT !” at me . cuz if that’s what you want to do , don’t ever let me find out .. I won’t take revenge or beat you up , but i don’t need that kind of comments from you . I once said this to someone “I just feel damn screwed up and hopeless now ..” .. guess when was the reply ?
“enjoy then ~”
Yes , I was lost . I wasn’t able to handle my own emotions and the only way I see the light is by going insane , acting like I’d never felt anything before , like as if nothing had ever affected me .
That , is the time you see me strongest .. only because you know me that much .
As I listen to some of the songs , and feel the hatred bugging me .. I still hate guys who are ego , speaks with no actions , yet snobs about it . to me , no matter how good you are at something , what you should do is still be humble , help those around you to be as good at it , and create fun with the lead you’re having . it’s not about competition , not about who gets more praises , who is more of a lion , but how you want to be remembered , how you choose to use the conscience and moral you know about .. into use .
i make wrong decisions , a lot .and my friends around me ask .. why do you always make the same old mistakes despite falling so hard on it ?
this , is to tell you that while you heave a sigh of relieve about not having to stick with me forever , did you think about what my friends would say about you ? they’re not saying these not because they don’t know the situation , but because they know me better than you do .
hmms ..
i love you like i always do.5:30 PM.
