Monday, April 25
4 days to a monthHim and her , gonna be one month soon .
We don’t quarrel much , sometimes don’t talk much , but bits and pieces are still sufficient . as I’m writing this , i’m not eating my lunch like I’m supposed to , not sleeping like I always do , but just writing away , jotting down some bits of what I remember .
“I wanna hold your hand for as long as I can ..”
“I don’t know if I’ll treat you differently next time , but right now , I’ll treat you as best as I can ..”
These are what I remember , and yes , that first day of work with breakfast and to-work-ride was an encouragement and not a mundane chore . it was my privilege .
i’m wondering if anything would happen on this Friday . it’s not a public holiday , not a 13th , not gonna fall sick , but it’s our anniversary . and I wonder , really ..
love ,
abby .
We don’t quarrel much , sometimes don’t talk much , but bits and pieces are still sufficient . as I’m writing this , i’m not eating my lunch like I’m supposed to , not sleeping like I always do , but just writing away , jotting down some bits of what I remember .
“I wanna hold your hand for as long as I can ..”
“I don’t know if I’ll treat you differently next time , but right now , I’ll treat you as best as I can ..”
These are what I remember , and yes , that first day of work with breakfast and to-work-ride was an encouragement and not a mundane chore . it was my privilege .
i’m wondering if anything would happen on this Friday . it’s not a public holiday , not a 13th , not gonna fall sick , but it’s our anniversary . and I wonder , really ..
love ,
abby .
i love you like i always do.1:11 PM.
Tuesday, April 19
My beloved pink torttie ♥
Baby bought me a pink torttie ! hahas . super sweet of him ! ok , this was how it happened ..
Text from him > meet you 7.30 under your blk k ?
Text from her > ok
- met -
Her : “got jam ?”
Him : “yea ..”
Her : lie on his shoulder and start slping ..
- stone for about 30mins -
Him : “dun sit here le .. if not I oso will fall aslp ..”
Her : “thn go where ….”
Him : “you go home slp bahs ..”
Her : “thn you eh ?”
Him : “I go myself lor ..”
Her : “you will angry not .. ?”Him : “no , angry for wad ? lols ..”
So that’s how I stayed home since 8pm+ last night . I slept not long after , and woke up at about 2am , I don’t know why . I saw his summons . it goes ..
- one missed call -
1st text > “you slp liao (: ”2nd text > “miss you baby (: ”3rd text > “heehee”
4th text > “good night baby. I left something for you in the shoe cabinet outside your house. It’s in the middle part. (: ”
It invoked so much curiosity in me I couldn’t sleep or stay calm . I had to find out . I opened the door without trying to be quiet , guessed if it could be a cat .. and that it would jump out when I open the door ! but nope , I was wrong . I opened the shoe cabinet , only to see shoes , and a plastic bag of something . I couldn’t recognize what was supposed to be in the cabinet and what not , but that plastic bag was kinda outta queue .. so I gave it a try .
It was a pink plastic turtle in a box , in a plastic bag .
I smiled at it for what seems to be hours and then I opened it up to flip around . it wasn’t a soft toy , it wasn’t ready to operate .. it’s a simple kiddy toy , waiting for its battery to operate .
Honestly , it’s a surprise to me . I never expected him to buy me something , cuz I thought he’d just go lala land , eat , pump and go home . I didn’t expect him to leave it there for me , cuz he’s never done such a thing before .. and we havn’t been together for too long . hahas .. it’s a surprise .. so shocked me .. cute sweet pleasant surprise . hahas . (:
Our 1st month anni’s arriving le .. soon eh ? in about …… 11days . yep . that’s all for last night . (:
Loved ,
Hungry Abby xD
Baby bought me a pink torttie ! hahas . super sweet of him ! ok , this was how it happened ..
Text from him > meet you 7.30 under your blk k ?
Text from her > ok
- met -
Her : “got jam ?”
Him : “yea ..”
Her : lie on his shoulder and start slping ..
- stone for about 30mins -
Him : “dun sit here le .. if not I oso will fall aslp ..”
Her : “thn go where ….”
Him : “you go home slp bahs ..”
Her : “thn you eh ?”
Him : “I go myself lor ..”
Her : “you will angry not .. ?”Him : “no , angry for wad ? lols ..”
So that’s how I stayed home since 8pm+ last night . I slept not long after , and woke up at about 2am , I don’t know why . I saw his summons . it goes ..
- one missed call -
1st text > “you slp liao (: ”2nd text > “miss you baby (: ”3rd text > “heehee”
4th text > “good night baby. I left something for you in the shoe cabinet outside your house. It’s in the middle part. (: ”
It invoked so much curiosity in me I couldn’t sleep or stay calm . I had to find out . I opened the door without trying to be quiet , guessed if it could be a cat .. and that it would jump out when I open the door ! but nope , I was wrong . I opened the shoe cabinet , only to see shoes , and a plastic bag of something . I couldn’t recognize what was supposed to be in the cabinet and what not , but that plastic bag was kinda outta queue .. so I gave it a try .
It was a pink plastic turtle in a box , in a plastic bag .
I smiled at it for what seems to be hours and then I opened it up to flip around . it wasn’t a soft toy , it wasn’t ready to operate .. it’s a simple kiddy toy , waiting for its battery to operate .
Honestly , it’s a surprise to me . I never expected him to buy me something , cuz I thought he’d just go lala land , eat , pump and go home . I didn’t expect him to leave it there for me , cuz he’s never done such a thing before .. and we havn’t been together for too long . hahas .. it’s a surprise .. so shocked me .. cute sweet pleasant surprise . hahas . (:
Our 1st month anni’s arriving le .. soon eh ? in about …… 11days . yep . that’s all for last night . (:
Loved ,
Hungry Abby xD
i love you like i always do.9:10 AM.
Monday, April 18
and now i realize ..
Sometimes , you hate someone so much it turns out that you’re defending yourself from all the mistakes .. and it’s when you give up defending yourself and start trying to understand what went wrong , you realize that the other party actually felt the same , they’re hating you too .
Blinded by emotions , we often get so caught up we overlook others’ feelings , feelin it’s reasonable . yes , there’s no 100% foolproof solutions to make everyone happy , but at least , you do what’s best for the situation , not because you feel happier that way , but because things would work out to be better , from there , someday ..
Now , as I’m busy and caught up in my mundane life , I start to wear out . in many ways and reasons that’s possible , I am finally stopping down , finally feeling some “aftermath effect” I once mentioned .
Don’t go “HAHA ! SERVES YOU RIGHT !” at me . cuz if that’s what you want to do , don’t ever let me find out .. I won’t take revenge or beat you up , but i don’t need that kind of comments from you . I once said this to someone “I just feel damn screwed up and hopeless now ..” .. guess when was the reply ?
“enjoy then ~”
Yes , I was lost . I wasn’t able to handle my own emotions and the only way I see the light is by going insane , acting like I’d never felt anything before , like as if nothing had ever affected me .
That , is the time you see me strongest .. only because you know me that much .
As I listen to some of the songs , and feel the hatred bugging me .. I still hate guys who are ego , speaks with no actions , yet snobs about it . to me , no matter how good you are at something , what you should do is still be humble , help those around you to be as good at it , and create fun with the lead you’re having . it’s not about competition , not about who gets more praises , who is more of a lion , but how you want to be remembered , how you choose to use the conscience and moral you know about .. into use .
i make wrong decisions , a lot .and my friends around me ask .. why do you always make the same old mistakes despite falling so hard on it ?
this , is to tell you that while you heave a sigh of relieve about not having to stick with me forever , did you think about what my friends would say about you ? they’re not saying these not because they don’t know the situation , but because they know me better than you do .
hmms ..
Sometimes , you hate someone so much it turns out that you’re defending yourself from all the mistakes .. and it’s when you give up defending yourself and start trying to understand what went wrong , you realize that the other party actually felt the same , they’re hating you too .
Blinded by emotions , we often get so caught up we overlook others’ feelings , feelin it’s reasonable . yes , there’s no 100% foolproof solutions to make everyone happy , but at least , you do what’s best for the situation , not because you feel happier that way , but because things would work out to be better , from there , someday ..
Now , as I’m busy and caught up in my mundane life , I start to wear out . in many ways and reasons that’s possible , I am finally stopping down , finally feeling some “aftermath effect” I once mentioned .
Don’t go “HAHA ! SERVES YOU RIGHT !” at me . cuz if that’s what you want to do , don’t ever let me find out .. I won’t take revenge or beat you up , but i don’t need that kind of comments from you . I once said this to someone “I just feel damn screwed up and hopeless now ..” .. guess when was the reply ?
“enjoy then ~”
Yes , I was lost . I wasn’t able to handle my own emotions and the only way I see the light is by going insane , acting like I’d never felt anything before , like as if nothing had ever affected me .
That , is the time you see me strongest .. only because you know me that much .
As I listen to some of the songs , and feel the hatred bugging me .. I still hate guys who are ego , speaks with no actions , yet snobs about it . to me , no matter how good you are at something , what you should do is still be humble , help those around you to be as good at it , and create fun with the lead you’re having . it’s not about competition , not about who gets more praises , who is more of a lion , but how you want to be remembered , how you choose to use the conscience and moral you know about .. into use .
i make wrong decisions , a lot .and my friends around me ask .. why do you always make the same old mistakes despite falling so hard on it ?
this , is to tell you that while you heave a sigh of relieve about not having to stick with me forever , did you think about what my friends would say about you ? they’re not saying these not because they don’t know the situation , but because they know me better than you do .
hmms ..
i love you like i always do.5:30 PM.
Once-in-a-while
This is the once-in-a-while time I feel lost .
I lost my direction because all my options seemed like nothing but failure plans . there’s no backup plans because all the backup plans failed to backup the original plan and here I am .. lost and hopeless , emotional and devastated .
Have you felt like this before ?
What do you usually do ?
Did it work ?
Maybe I’m weak , maybe I’m wimpy , maybe I’m stupid , maybe I’m just destined to prove failure’s right ? I’m so screwed by confidence I’m left with none of it at all now ..
Maybe a movie would cheer me up ? maybe a song sang live would make me feel comforted ? maybe some sweets or desserts or perhaps something crazy like marriage ?
The once-in-a-while time ..
Signing off ..
Abby .
This is the once-in-a-while time I feel lost .
I lost my direction because all my options seemed like nothing but failure plans . there’s no backup plans because all the backup plans failed to backup the original plan and here I am .. lost and hopeless , emotional and devastated .
Have you felt like this before ?
What do you usually do ?
Did it work ?
Maybe I’m weak , maybe I’m wimpy , maybe I’m stupid , maybe I’m just destined to prove failure’s right ? I’m so screwed by confidence I’m left with none of it at all now ..
Maybe a movie would cheer me up ? maybe a song sang live would make me feel comforted ? maybe some sweets or desserts or perhaps something crazy like marriage ?
The once-in-a-while time ..
Signing off ..
Abby .
i love you like i always do.1:43 PM.
A thousand apologies , désolé . It’s been a week since I last updated ! omg !
I’m so sorry , my dear readers . sorry that I’ve neglected my blog , sorry that I’ve not updated you guys through the only medium that seems to be most unoccupied .
Hmms .. I’M CRAVING TO LISTEN TO A GUY SINGGGG !!
Hahas .. okays , I’m done crapping . but then again , that line is just so classic i think about it all the time ! hais .. I’m so busy I’ve got no time to go kbox or party world to sing , but I’m so craving that I need that now .. now NOW NOW !! hmms ~ if only someone could sing for me every night before I go to bed ..
So yes , I stopped at 6 april right ? now here’s what happened for the past week .
7th April , Thursday : I had MAC at BPP with Belinda , 7pm . bf fetched me after work , and we headed home cuz I was kinda .. overdressed .. overdressed for what ? (it’s actually the whole thing ! the whole work and dinner fact ..) lols .. I’m just too bored . but I know if I dress up alil , at least I have something to admire , MYSELF ! haha ! not to the extent of camwhoring , but yes , admire myself . you know what miracles it does ? it increases my self-confidence . there was alil hiccup after that , and I was left alone for awhile , but overall , that night was a shaggy night . tired max .
8th April , Friday : I had nasik lemak at panjang after that , and then we headed to Choa Chu Kang Park for honey honey ! hahas .. basically that means some own sweet time of us two .. (:
9th April , Saturday : I had KFC at Jurong Point with some random peeps , walked around and chatted alil .. thn met bf around midnight , thn .. yea .. I forgot what happened .. =\
10th April , Sunday : IT’S A SUNDAY ! hahas .. I met up with Azz to go get my grad suit , cuz from what I remembered , 9th April has sales of grad suit in skol . so .. yea . I went down to rp , only to realize that I’ve remembered the dates wrongly . crap . kinda sickening tho .. cuz I walked from cwp to rp ! dang ! it’s been real long since I travelled such distance ON FOOT . umm .. yea . HOWEVERRRR , buddy and I met up with gf at cwp after that ! hahas . it’s been MONTHS since I last saw peiyi .. missed her much much ! ): we chatted for about an hour , and she left to go to her granny’s , and we left for Orchard , to look up my another buddy , Anson . well , this dude works at Top 5 , which is a thai disco located at Orchard Tower . both buddy and I have never been there before so .. we sorta had a touch time lookin that place up but hey ! it’s not that bad after all ! hahas .. so .. oh ya ! did you know about the stench ?! there’s this .. “smelly toufu” scent there .. from the tunnel towards shaw house .. like .. EEW ? smelly like it could cause a headache leh ! that was about .. 4pm+ , then when we met Sun at about 6pm , Sun said “wah ! very smelly leh .. must be chou toufu .. DO YOU KNOW WHERE IT IS ?? I WANNA EEEEEEEAT !” –faint-
11th April , Monday : I was supposed to meet Sun today , but because bf wasn’t working , and I’m supposed to be auto , I shifted the meeting to Tues , and there . the day was spent with bf . honey honey ! hahas ..
I asked “why no vege liao ?”
She said “why ? we oso lidat eat wad .”
Yaya ! first , it was her hubby , her hubby . now , it’s his wife his wife ! wtf ? I sooo regretted agreeing to witness her 2nd marriage . I was “allowed” to be beaten up , “allowed” to be not given pocket money when I was on the verge of starvation , “allowed” to be neglected ! wtf ? and thn I realize , the world has changed . she use to say that she dusn’t like people eating with their utensils klinking with the glass bowl but now , I can hear that even when im resting in my room ! thanks much .. to HER HUSBAND . -.-
** things I have on hand –
>> get the fruit in the machine and start grinding . (coded ! hahas ! xD)
>> keep organizing my time well
>> don’t forget about my bf
>> keep meeting new people
Yep , Im gonna be a money machine ! RWARR ! :p
oh ya ! I almost forgot ! I had an appraisal with my boss ytd , supervisor . he told me about what I would be needing to handle for the upcoming next few months , and that I would be sent for courses ! wheee ! hahas .. it’ll be some Writing Skills in Business Communication or SCM (Supply Chain Management) thingy .. yay !! he feedback to me that my fellow colleagues and mentor said that I’m a fast learner ! whoo ! happy max ! hahas .. all the more I’ve got the confidence to chiong liao ! rwarr ! :D
Yep . that’s all .
I’m so sorry , my dear readers . sorry that I’ve neglected my blog , sorry that I’ve not updated you guys through the only medium that seems to be most unoccupied .
Hmms .. I’M CRAVING TO LISTEN TO A GUY SINGGGG !!
Hahas .. okays , I’m done crapping . but then again , that line is just so classic i think about it all the time ! hais .. I’m so busy I’ve got no time to go kbox or party world to sing , but I’m so craving that I need that now .. now NOW NOW !! hmms ~ if only someone could sing for me every night before I go to bed ..
So yes , I stopped at 6 april right ? now here’s what happened for the past week .
7th April , Thursday : I had MAC at BPP with Belinda , 7pm . bf fetched me after work , and we headed home cuz I was kinda .. overdressed .. overdressed for what ? (it’s actually the whole thing ! the whole work and dinner fact ..) lols .. I’m just too bored . but I know if I dress up alil , at least I have something to admire , MYSELF ! haha ! not to the extent of camwhoring , but yes , admire myself . you know what miracles it does ? it increases my self-confidence . there was alil hiccup after that , and I was left alone for awhile , but overall , that night was a shaggy night . tired max .
8th April , Friday : I had nasik lemak at panjang after that , and then we headed to Choa Chu Kang Park for honey honey ! hahas .. basically that means some own sweet time of us two .. (:
9th April , Saturday : I had KFC at Jurong Point with some random peeps , walked around and chatted alil .. thn met bf around midnight , thn .. yea .. I forgot what happened .. =\
10th April , Sunday : IT’S A SUNDAY ! hahas .. I met up with Azz to go get my grad suit , cuz from what I remembered , 9th April has sales of grad suit in skol . so .. yea . I went down to rp , only to realize that I’ve remembered the dates wrongly . crap . kinda sickening tho .. cuz I walked from cwp to rp ! dang ! it’s been real long since I travelled such distance ON FOOT . umm .. yea . HOWEVERRRR , buddy and I met up with gf at cwp after that ! hahas . it’s been MONTHS since I last saw peiyi .. missed her much much ! ): we chatted for about an hour , and she left to go to her granny’s , and we left for Orchard , to look up my another buddy , Anson . well , this dude works at Top 5 , which is a thai disco located at Orchard Tower . both buddy and I have never been there before so .. we sorta had a touch time lookin that place up but hey ! it’s not that bad after all ! hahas .. so .. oh ya ! did you know about the stench ?! there’s this .. “smelly toufu” scent there .. from the tunnel towards shaw house .. like .. EEW ? smelly like it could cause a headache leh ! that was about .. 4pm+ , then when we met Sun at about 6pm , Sun said “wah ! very smelly leh .. must be chou toufu .. DO YOU KNOW WHERE IT IS ?? I WANNA EEEEEEEAT !” –faint-
11th April , Monday : I was supposed to meet Sun today , but because bf wasn’t working , and I’m supposed to be auto , I shifted the meeting to Tues , and there . the day was spent with bf . honey honey ! hahas ..
12th April , Tuesday : Appointment made with Sun , but my phone suddenly low-batt-ed ! tsk ! angry die me leh ! hais .. bo-bian-ly have to go home charge .. but cuz I cnt stand the thought of staying at home , I left within 2hrs . yes I did charge my phone , and I went woodlands after that .. to meet up with my fav gals ! I’m guilty for having neglected them for weeks .. yes , even more guilty to have neglected those I havn’t met in months .. no doubt about that . and did I say I missed my single life ?? I MISSED MY SINGLE LIFE , LOADS ! those were the flirtatious inconsequential nights I had , meeting a whole lot of new people just like I’ve always enjoyed ! :D
13th April , Wednesday : Hump of the week . it was slow , and SO EVER FULL OF SHIT ! I ran toilet like .. 4 times ? and if I havn’t mentioned , I did at least 3 times the few days before ! ouch you know ?! lols .. still , lunch was taken at a building nearby our workplace called MapleTree . there’s a pond kinda thing there , and subway .. etc etc AND ASTON ! damn , it’s been a decade since I last ate it ! bf fetched me aftr work again , and we went to Pasir Panjang for dinner . Nasik Lemak . not bad de leh ! hahas .. though I have no pictures to prove , but the portions were rather much , and the price’s just like any other kopitiams ! (: inconvenient if you do not have transport I think .. =\
14th April , Thursday : the soon-to-be end of the week . I finally met Sun again on this faithful day after work , 6pm+ , at Raffles . OH YEA ! IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY ! (judging from the current date ..) I have been having 3 to 5hrs of sleep for the past few weeks since my work started , and so , I’ve given up the taunting thoughts of meeting bf . ironic much , but then again , it was crucial . I fell into coma the minute I stepped into my room and laid on bed . thn I was there for about half-an-hour .. and thn because I realize it’s been about 8 hours since I last ate , I decided to drag myself outta bed to grab a bite . (recall * I phoned my mother at about 5plus that day to confirm I’ll be home at about 9pm+ 10pm for dinner .) yet , there was a fistful of fish , and green beans – those peas in a long ovulated “bag” which could contain like .. 4 to 6 peas each “bag” . she has been making horrible dinner . too salty , too any-how .. it’s like as if her standard had dropped ! or was it the fact that she’d lost pride in cooking ? sad much .
I asked “why no vege liao ?”
She said “why ? we oso lidat eat wad .”
Yaya ! first , it was her hubby , her hubby . now , it’s his wife his wife ! wtf ? I sooo regretted agreeing to witness her 2nd marriage . I was “allowed” to be beaten up , “allowed” to be not given pocket money when I was on the verge of starvation , “allowed” to be neglected ! wtf ? and thn I realize , the world has changed . she use to say that she dusn’t like people eating with their utensils klinking with the glass bowl but now , I can hear that even when im resting in my room ! thanks much .. to HER HUSBAND . -.-
15th April , Friday : work has been hijacking me the whole office hour , and I didn’t even have time to think about my dear bonbons .. but today , I completed my tasks ahead of time and yes , I had my very first bonbon at 3pm+ . crappy much . I think it dusn’t occupy me as much as work could ~ hahas .. I’m meeting Sun to go for a short course later on , thn meeting bf aftr that . I’m feeling shagged out already . how I wish I could sleepover at his place .. ):
Overall , it’s not a bad week after all ! I got into the workaholic mode and now Im picking up investment knowledge on my own free time ! hahas .. anybody interested to make money with me ? I’m just 8 numbers away tho . test me if you must , but i won’t hide the fact that I’m still a newbie . a very hit-on newbie . I’ve already made plans and though up a handful of tricks to it . and with the number of resources I have , i will pull through this time , no matter what .
** things I have on hand –
>> get the fruit in the machine and start grinding . (coded ! hahas ! xD)
>> keep organizing my time well
>> count the numbers well
>> meet up with my gals promptly even with work and projects at hand>> don’t forget about my bf
>> keep meeting new people
>> drink more water ! (YOU THERE ! STARING AT THIS ! YOU TOO !! :D)
>> come up with more ideas to save up and earn up !Yep , Im gonna be a money machine ! RWARR ! :p
oh ya ! I almost forgot ! I had an appraisal with my boss ytd , supervisor . he told me about what I would be needing to handle for the upcoming next few months , and that I would be sent for courses ! wheee ! hahas .. it’ll be some Writing Skills in Business Communication or SCM (Supply Chain Management) thingy .. yay !! he feedback to me that my fellow colleagues and mentor said that I’m a fast learner ! whoo ! happy max ! hahas .. all the more I’ve got the confidence to chiong liao ! rwarr ! :D
Yep . that’s all .
Peeps , ring me up if you’re free alright ! we can always fix a time to meet ! I miss you ! ^^
Love ,
Abby ♥
i love you like i always do.8:36 AM.
Wednesday, April 6
toujours après
It was fate that I met you ,
scheduled that we have this coincidence .
So back to the present , I just wrote my gfs a little something on their fb .
for sarah -
for huiyen -
for ximin - if i were an architechture , i'd build you a house . if i were a fashion designer , i'd name my collections after you . if i were a singer , i'd write songs for you . but i'm just me .. so this is what i could write for you , those are the memories i could give you , those are the encouragement i could share , and the future's somewhere you would never be forgotten ! hope this brightens up your day ! miss you ! ♥
for carol - if i could ever tattoo a word on you , i'd tattoo CAROL . know why ? because these 5 alphabets remind me of one very special person i'd always remember , always think of , always love , because she's my best girl , best partner , etc etc .. especially , BEST FRIEND ! ♥
for belinda - i won't miss you as much .. not because i don't love you anymore , but because i'm seeing you tomorrow ! miss you ! ^^
{ With powers , comes responsibilities } this , is just so damn true ! only the first week of work and my mum has already told me to buy my own shampoo and necessities when I get my pay . and just two days ago , when I went to work by myself , I spent $5.80 on transport ! stupid standard tix .. it’s only about $3+ yesterday ! tsk ! horrible uh ! but anyway , bf’s fetching me later .. so .. YAY ! BIKE RIDE FTW ! :D
and these are what i drew ytd ..
I’ve finally submitted my photo for my staff pass . this “passport size” photo is in fact , a soft copy ! :D hahas .. well , still , it does the trick !
Bf and I spotted this while we were on the road ! though I still don’t quite understand why it’s a big deal , but the fact that it has a 1 in its carplate number aside from all the alphabets , I guess it’s rather rare ?
And these , were the pictures I was talking about on my fb .. “5th day of ms red , 6th day of work , and my colleague says I look very si wen with my specs and clipped-up fringe ..” hahas .. yes , I was having menses again , started work not long ago , and that fake image has never failed to give others a decent look . so here it is ! :D
This was a very overdue picture from 26th of march .
It was taken , while I was about to have my dinner , at bugis area’s something something Duck Rice . and talking about last week , I was brooding over the { moving outta the house } issue . mother was nagging about my late return everyday , which was between midnight to 2am , and before I even started out on this job , I was returning home at random timings between 6am to 8am in the morning .. out thru the night I was just admiring the scenery with my very amicable company , whom later became my boyfriend .
Anyway , im sorry to those who tried to woo me but failed .
I feel guilty about your disappointment especially to those whom I’ve caused desvastation and sadness . I’m really sorry , sincerely . to jx , I’m sorry that everything had to turn out this way . during the days you were busy and away , he was there trying really hard to move my heart . I didn’t rush it this time , took a period of a month , and it was his everyday effort that drew me closer . I’m sorry to say that it’s him when you came back , but the only thing that loosen me from you were those days where you didn’t text me , those days which I had to deal with all the pressure alone and when you were gone , I had no one , until i met him on a very ordinary yet random time . he was there for me , by my side and in my mind , in my heart .
scheduled that we have this coincidence .
it was a chance that you made out of an opportunity ,
a beauty you made out of our everyday memory .
and dear boyfriend , I’m sorry that I worried about thing which I was supposed to have faith in , prolly that’s what they call pms , but still , I don’t wanna lose you .. and if you ever read this , I hope it puts a smile on you ..
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for huiyen -
for ximin - if i were an architechture , i'd build you a house . if i were a fashion designer , i'd name my collections after you . if i were a singer , i'd write songs for you . but i'm just me .. so this is what i could write for you , those are the memories i could give you , those are the encouragement i could share , and the future's somewhere you would never be forgotten ! hope this brightens up your day ! miss you ! ♥
for carol - if i could ever tattoo a word on you , i'd tattoo CAROL . know why ? because these 5 alphabets remind me of one very special person i'd always remember , always think of , always love , because she's my best girl , best partner , etc etc .. especially , BEST FRIEND ! ♥
for zhiying - for you , i'd keep the best for you , save it till the time you need , improve till you like it , and give it to you in the most unforgettable way . hahas .. IMY ! ^^
So .. about my job scope , if I havn’t mention , I do invoices that kinda thing of different distributers ., keeping the documents in order , shipping reports .. mostly involved with numbers and products . and if you know the diploma I do , which is on digital entertainment electronics , these are two different things . unrelated .
So .. about my job scope , if I havn’t mention , I do invoices that kinda thing of different distributers ., keeping the documents in order , shipping reports .. mostly involved with numbers and products . and if you know the diploma I do , which is on digital entertainment electronics , these are two different things . unrelated .
Oh ya ! I received the letter about the graduation registration and collection of certs and yeah ! that means that I’ll be able to graduate ! HOORAY ! but unfortunately , I missed the registration date .. what should I do ? hmms .. *blank*
So .. the air con in the office doesn’t freeze , but it numbs ! I think it’s as cold as open-door-ed cinemas . there are milo powders here , coffee and lipton tea too ! hahas .. took me a week before I finally remembered to bring my own mug .. but then again , the place is nice ! and if you could see in the very first photo of this post , I have my very ooooooooown .. CUBICLE ! haha ! just the kinda job I wanted ! :D
Okay . that’s all for today I guess .
Oh wait !
I almost forgot ! I’m dead craving for Macs and Subway ! it’s been like .. months since I last had it and im … DEAD CRAVING , did I mention ? DEADD CRAVINGG !!!!!!! RWARRRRRRR !!
and these are what i drew ytd ..
Ok . I’m done . hahas . peeps who wanna meet me , I’m off work at 1730 eh ? so .. catch me up ! love ya ! :D
ton sourire est ma mémoire
i love you like i always do.5:03 PM.
Tuesday, April 5
2nd and 3rd of April 2011
i had lunch with bf at the scissors hawker around geylang area , got our bonbons and then headed to the nearest mrt station and went our separate ways . him , home , me , aranda country club .
it was a long day because that morning , bf and I stayed home for less than 5 hours , and while I had performance rehearsals that day , bf was at work till late night . still , he came to chalet and peii me .. and that’s heading to downtown east from Holland village all by himself , on a faulty bike .
talking about his bike , I’ve fallen asleep on it before . I guess it was kinda like an insult to him because he’s a 150km/hr rider , but when he’s with me , for the sake of my safety , he slowed down to <80km/hr , most of the time between 40~60km/hr .
then again , his bike has been faulty . no lightings during turns , unable to start , and even the sliders are nagging ! he looks me up everyday , and it’s already been over a month .. can you imagine that ? and as much as I’m sleep deprived , he’s not feelin any bit better than me .
even if the biker’s not tired , the bike’s tired .
baby didn’t wanna go home the next day , so aftr having our brunch at RK House , we headed back to my house for a nap from 2pm onwards . bf had to work at 5pm that day , so he went off at about 4.30pm , whereas I ….. lazed on the bed all the way till 7plus that night .
we met up awhile that night , and went home early .
it was a week with less of lala land and more of quality time together . :)
new week , new beginning !
4th april was a different day because it was the first Monday I had work ! still , I learnt a lot , handled quite a lot , and was late for quite a lot . -.-
Reason being that I woke up late , stepped outta house only at about 8am , and reached Queenstown mrt only after 9am . I wasn’t sure about the location of the shuttle bus to my workplace , neither do I know about the time range of the shuttle bus service available . still , I reached the office safe and sound , difference being that I was already late for an hour . *cash growing wings and flying away* yea , that’s $7.50 less my salary .. :(
We went lala land for fuel and supper , and towards the end , there was a little tiff . I felt really hurt , but he’s more pissed than me ..
Yes baby , I know you dote on me more than anyone else , and you really did a lot for me .. I had my worries and insecurities only because I didn’t wanna lose you .. I mean no harm .. hope the path straighten out … sorry for making you feel that way ..hope you can forive me .,,,
You make me feel perfect like a whole . ^^
i had lunch with bf at the scissors hawker around geylang area , got our bonbons and then headed to the nearest mrt station and went our separate ways . him , home , me , aranda country club .
it was a long day because that morning , bf and I stayed home for less than 5 hours , and while I had performance rehearsals that day , bf was at work till late night . still , he came to chalet and peii me .. and that’s heading to downtown east from Holland village all by himself , on a faulty bike .
talking about his bike , I’ve fallen asleep on it before . I guess it was kinda like an insult to him because he’s a 150km/hr rider , but when he’s with me , for the sake of my safety , he slowed down to <80km/hr , most of the time between 40~60km/hr .
then again , his bike has been faulty . no lightings during turns , unable to start , and even the sliders are nagging ! he looks me up everyday , and it’s already been over a month .. can you imagine that ? and as much as I’m sleep deprived , he’s not feelin any bit better than me .
even if the biker’s not tired , the bike’s tired .
baby didn’t wanna go home the next day , so aftr having our brunch at RK House , we headed back to my house for a nap from 2pm onwards . bf had to work at 5pm that day , so he went off at about 4.30pm , whereas I ….. lazed on the bed all the way till 7plus that night .
we met up awhile that night , and went home early .
it was a week with less of lala land and more of quality time together . :)
new week , new beginning !
4th april was a different day because it was the first Monday I had work ! still , I learnt a lot , handled quite a lot , and was late for quite a lot . -.-
Reason being that I woke up late , stepped outta house only at about 8am , and reached Queenstown mrt only after 9am . I wasn’t sure about the location of the shuttle bus to my workplace , neither do I know about the time range of the shuttle bus service available . still , I reached the office safe and sound , difference being that I was already late for an hour . *cash growing wings and flying away* yea , that’s $7.50 less my salary .. :(
We went lala land for fuel and supper , and towards the end , there was a little tiff . I felt really hurt , but he’s more pissed than me ..
Yes baby , I know you dote on me more than anyone else , and you really did a lot for me .. I had my worries and insecurities only because I didn’t wanna lose you .. I mean no harm .. hope the path straighten out … sorry for making you feel that way ..hope you can forive me .,,,
You make me feel perfect like a whole . ^^
i love you like i always do.9:56 AM.
Sunday, April 3
buzz buzzzz broom broomm !
i've been busy on vocal and roundings ! i actually took pictures of places i went , and people i was with but .. my sis misplaced the cable for it .. so .. yea .. im stuck .. STUCKK !! arghh ..
let's see ..
there , in anti-clockwise direction starts with Luna the Bassist , Jayson the Rhythm Guitarist , Kenrick the Lead Guitarist . so .. it was the first time i met Luna . was a rather .. unfamiliar experience but i think overall , she's a sweet girl with a strong character ? hahas .. maybe maybe uh ~
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i just performed yesterday ! havn't been updating but i'll post up the pictures as soon as it's out ok ! :D
been sleeping real late this whole week .
monday - sign documents at orchard , eat at bugis , went esplanade , thn home !
tuesday - start work at alexandra road , toshiba . bf made french toast for me , bought me green apple hi-chew (i bought it once and said i like that flavour just 3days ago) , and a bottle of chicken essence ! but i only took the first two cuz i don't drink chicken essence de .. hahas ..
wednesday - CJ warehouse visit for toshiba stock take . went home by myself , saw bf at my void deck when i arrive ! uber sweet fella .. for the past few weeks , we've been meeting up everyday and he's been biking me everywhere .. he pick me up from places nearby where i am , and sends me home everyday ! hahas .. i feel so spoilt it's been at least 25days since i last travelled on public transport for more than 3days . -.-
thursday - start learning things at toshiba , shopped at bugis and ate at the restaurant QQ Noodles ! hahas ..
friday - learn a lil more , met bf after work , ton at ruiying's place with lawrence buddy and fan fan's gf , cat ! hahas . she's pretty , cute , slim , fair , gentle , modest and yet-to-find-out ! hahas .
gotta rush some stuff now , will update tml ! :)
i'd like to share these vids . i've been listening to it over and over again , some i havn't been listening but just hijacked my brain jamming non-stop .
with you around i'll never feel down . :)
i've been busy on vocal and roundings ! i actually took pictures of places i went , and people i was with but .. my sis misplaced the cable for it .. so .. yea .. im stuck .. STUCKK !! arghh ..
let's see ..
there , in anti-clockwise direction starts with Luna the Bassist , Jayson the Rhythm Guitarist , Kenrick the Lead Guitarist . so .. it was the first time i met Luna . was a rather .. unfamiliar experience but i think overall , she's a sweet girl with a strong character ? hahas .. maybe maybe uh ~
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i just performed yesterday ! havn't been updating but i'll post up the pictures as soon as it's out ok ! :D
been sleeping real late this whole week .
monday - sign documents at orchard , eat at bugis , went esplanade , thn home !
tuesday - start work at alexandra road , toshiba . bf made french toast for me , bought me green apple hi-chew (i bought it once and said i like that flavour just 3days ago) , and a bottle of chicken essence ! but i only took the first two cuz i don't drink chicken essence de .. hahas ..
wednesday - CJ warehouse visit for toshiba stock take . went home by myself , saw bf at my void deck when i arrive ! uber sweet fella .. for the past few weeks , we've been meeting up everyday and he's been biking me everywhere .. he pick me up from places nearby where i am , and sends me home everyday ! hahas .. i feel so spoilt it's been at least 25days since i last travelled on public transport for more than 3days . -.-
thursday - start learning things at toshiba , shopped at bugis and ate at the restaurant QQ Noodles ! hahas ..
friday - learn a lil more , met bf after work , ton at ruiying's place with lawrence buddy and fan fan's gf , cat ! hahas . she's pretty , cute , slim , fair , gentle , modest and yet-to-find-out ! hahas .
gotta rush some stuff now , will update tml ! :)
i'd like to share these vids . i've been listening to it over and over again , some i havn't been listening but just hijacked my brain jamming non-stop .
with you around i'll never feel down . :)
i love you like i always do.11:33 PM.
