Sunday, March 6
the hardest fall .
i still remember the first few songs you ever sang to me .. by my request - Daniel Wong's Promise (光良的约定) , and Gary Cao's Count to five , promise me (曹格的数到五，答应我) . i praised your singing just like anyone else would have ..
the first surprise you ever gave to me - chocolate milkshake . you told your dad you want two over the phone .. i didn't even suspect .. and we weren't even together yet .
the first present you ever bought for me - the studded doggie shirt . you bought yourself the bunny one , but you wore it only twice ..
the first time i cried for you - at your living room , on the third day of our rs , on the sofa , 15 mins to midnight .
i had my very first black colored ring , which we spent about an hour deciding , but the whole evening thinking about it .. between that black or silver one . you paid for it with your hard earned savings from working with your father .
you were the first to make me straw hearts , self-decorated the bottle .. all through the late night even when your friend was around ..
the first song you said was for us - Nicky Lee's Summer (李玖哲的夏天) .
the first song you've ever asked me for the song title after hearing from my psp - Faber Drive's When I'm With You .
the very first time we met - MCC . that was also where you had your first worst ktv session .. because we quarreled over you talking about gals and about her ..
the second time we met - at your house , mj .. and i was late cuz i went home to change ..
the first time you helped me - was at ur fren's house , cuz rj slipped off my mind . you walk me to 768 , and came to 768 to fetch me only 10mins in between .. that's how we exchanged number ..
the first time i met your clique of friends was at their bdae party bbq - we left early cuz i said you were busy .. cuz you were doing alot of cooking ..
i remember alot more .. how we quarreled and the very first time you said you wanna break up .. you were hitting the cupboard , feeling v angry .. another time was at my house when i threatened that if you were to leave , we'd be over .. the other time at bpp , and the last was over the phone just 11 days ago ..
we've been together for 100 days .. it's not the number that matters .. even if it were 97 or 36 , i'd still remember it .. all the rainy days or cold or warm nights we've spent hugging each other to sleep .. how you helped me celebrate my birthday at party world , along with you buddy and my gf , with that $22.80 chocolate cake you chose from Four Leaves .. you silly head .. you said you went to toilet , yet i heard your voice over sarah's phone .. lols .. it was sweet still .. i even remember you trying that leg massager , making me try while singing .. lols ..
the first nightmare you told me you had - i was kissing another guy at the void deck and you saw me , but you just walked away crying ..
the first time we chatted over the phone - from midnight till 4am ..
bits and pieces of everything .. i may not be right about the dates , but i remember .. how we had Fish & Co at IMM , and you footed the bill first ..
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the above were written on 1st of march 2011 , but i was interrupted by my mother . that night , horrible things happened . she was there .. nagging at me saying that her electricity bills had increased .
if you had been me , i haven't had time to really rot in front of my lappy for more than 5 hours 1st march and 28th feb . and the days before those two days , i was sleeping till noon , and out once i wake up . never was i home before 11pm everyday , and i sleep around 3am by mental exhaustion .
she sat on my bed , waiting for me to switch off my lappy , and i was bothered by the loss of privacy . so i asked her to go to bed , but she insisted and started arguing . so we hit off in disagreement , and there was alot of irritation and frustration in between . she slapped me on my head and arms , scratched me too . thn took my lappy out by force , and her hubby just hid it somewhere at the lift lobby .
my frustration maxed and breached with insanity .. and i thrashed the lappy fan and her usb mouse on the floor . she walked into the room , shocked by the pieces i've made , and she said "i won't feel good if i don't beat you up ." and thn she took the cables of my lappy charger and wacked my by my right arm , once , twice .. or was it afew times ? i couldn't bother .
all i know at that point of time was .. i wasn't the reason for the rise of electricity bills , she should know where she stands and what are her limits , and the more she tries to threaten me , the more i'm gonna stay firm on my decision .
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all the other memories ..
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been going for interview the whole week .
and right now i'm dead tired and beat .
because i'm still jobless and i'm getting poorer and poorer as days goes by .
gavin called up yesterday , telling me about his achievements .
people at work thinks highly of him ,
colleagues at work feels good about him .
he found a new girl from audition ,
and they're rather close .
he'll be having better job offers ,
and definitely , a better lifestyle .
it's good . for him .
and i'm happy for him .
he told me that if i wanted to work ,
he could help me sound it out .
and that after i left ,
things changed dramatically for him .
it's good for you that you've achieved so much ,
walked and picked up so much .
you'll be fine on your own now ..
you won't be needing me anymore .
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lols .. how silly could i ever be ?
sourness fills my heart as i listen to his voice speak ..
all i ever did was to breach his career and potential lover together ,
but never once would i try to bring myself up in his future .
i'm probably just gonna dissolve away just like that .
just like how i dissolved away in jerry's life .
i let go .
i gave up .
and this time , i screwed up ..
just as badly as you did ..
not sure if you would ever realize ..
but i guess it no longer matters ..
nothing stays forever ..
i still remember the first few songs you ever sang to me .. by my request - Daniel Wong's Promise (光良的约定) , and Gary Cao's Count to five , promise me (曹格的数到五，答应我) . i praised your singing just like anyone else would have ..
the first surprise you ever gave to me - chocolate milkshake . you told your dad you want two over the phone .. i didn't even suspect .. and we weren't even together yet .
the first present you ever bought for me - the studded doggie shirt . you bought yourself the bunny one , but you wore it only twice ..
i had my very first black colored ring , which we spent about an hour deciding , but the whole evening thinking about it .. between that black or silver one . you paid for it with your hard earned savings from working with your father .
you were the first to make me straw hearts , self-decorated the bottle .. all through the late night even when your friend was around ..
the first song you've ever asked me for the song title after hearing from my psp - Faber Drive's When I'm With You .
the very first time we met - MCC . that was also where you had your first worst ktv session .. because we quarreled over you talking about gals and about her ..
the second time we met - at your house , mj .. and i was late cuz i went home to change ..
the first time you helped me - was at ur fren's house , cuz rj slipped off my mind . you walk me to 768 , and came to 768 to fetch me only 10mins in between .. that's how we exchanged number ..
the first time i met your clique of friends was at their bdae party bbq - we left early cuz i said you were busy .. cuz you were doing alot of cooking ..
i remember alot more .. how we quarreled and the very first time you said you wanna break up .. you were hitting the cupboard , feeling v angry .. another time was at my house when i threatened that if you were to leave , we'd be over .. the other time at bpp , and the last was over the phone just 11 days ago ..
we've been together for 100 days .. it's not the number that matters .. even if it were 97 or 36 , i'd still remember it .. all the rainy days or cold or warm nights we've spent hugging each other to sleep .. how you helped me celebrate my birthday at party world , along with you buddy and my gf , with that $22.80 chocolate cake you chose from Four Leaves .. you silly head .. you said you went to toilet , yet i heard your voice over sarah's phone .. lols .. it was sweet still .. i even remember you trying that leg massager , making me try while singing .. lols ..
the first nightmare you told me you had - i was kissing another guy at the void deck and you saw me , but you just walked away crying ..
the first time we chatted over the phone - from midnight till 4am ..
bits and pieces of everything .. i may not be right about the dates , but i remember .. how we had Fish & Co at IMM , and you footed the bill first ..
--------------------------------------
the above were written on 1st of march 2011 , but i was interrupted by my mother . that night , horrible things happened . she was there .. nagging at me saying that her electricity bills had increased .
if you had been me , i haven't had time to really rot in front of my lappy for more than 5 hours 1st march and 28th feb . and the days before those two days , i was sleeping till noon , and out once i wake up . never was i home before 11pm everyday , and i sleep around 3am by mental exhaustion .
she sat on my bed , waiting for me to switch off my lappy , and i was bothered by the loss of privacy . so i asked her to go to bed , but she insisted and started arguing . so we hit off in disagreement , and there was alot of irritation and frustration in between . she slapped me on my head and arms , scratched me too . thn took my lappy out by force , and her hubby just hid it somewhere at the lift lobby .
my frustration maxed and breached with insanity .. and i thrashed the lappy fan and her usb mouse on the floor . she walked into the room , shocked by the pieces i've made , and she said "i won't feel good if i don't beat you up ." and thn she took the cables of my lappy charger and wacked my by my right arm , once , twice .. or was it afew times ? i couldn't bother .
all i know at that point of time was .. i wasn't the reason for the rise of electricity bills , she should know where she stands and what are her limits , and the more she tries to threaten me , the more i'm gonna stay firm on my decision .
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
all the other memories ..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
been going for interview the whole week .
and right now i'm dead tired and beat .
because i'm still jobless and i'm getting poorer and poorer as days goes by .
gavin called up yesterday , telling me about his achievements .
people at work thinks highly of him ,
colleagues at work feels good about him .
he found a new girl from audition ,
and they're rather close .
he'll be having better job offers ,
and definitely , a better lifestyle .
it's good . for him .
and i'm happy for him .
he told me that if i wanted to work ,
he could help me sound it out .
and that after i left ,
things changed dramatically for him .
it's good for you that you've achieved so much ,
walked and picked up so much .
you'll be fine on your own now ..
you won't be needing me anymore .
:
:
:
:
lols .. how silly could i ever be ?
sourness fills my heart as i listen to his voice speak ..
all i ever did was to breach his career and potential lover together ,
but never once would i try to bring myself up in his future .
i'm probably just gonna dissolve away just like that .
just like how i dissolved away in jerry's life .
i let go .
i gave up .
and this time , i screwed up ..
just as badly as you did ..
not sure if you would ever realize ..
but i guess it no longer matters ..
nothing stays forever ..
i love you like i always do.12:37 AM.
