Sunday, March 20
a little bit more than what it is .
been 4 days since i last blogged eh ? well , i guess all of these days i've just been out till day break .
mother havn't been willing to give me pocket money , all because i'm still jobless after one month of job hunt . well , i can't hurry the people out there you know , they ask me to wait , and yes , i've been waiting . but then one the other side , you just keep barking at me for waiting , umm .. are you sober ? it's just plain sickening to me . but then again , threats of throwing me out or not giving me pocket money ain't gonna work anymore my dear .. my guts grew . ;)
funny how i've been feeling emotional despite hanging out at night . i just said this few hours ago "night life tends to be less stressful because we come out to play , out to chill , there's no waiting and thus no frustration .. unlike the day , which is full of people around , waiting for empty seats or even time to meet ." yes yes , it might seem to be a little shitty , but no , i mean it . ain't that the obvious reason why clubbers tend to hang longer on the line of interest as compared to shoppers ? blehh ! whatever ~
i'm having jamming session later ! whoo ~ hope everything works out ! i've tried one whole bottle of pi pa gao and a bottle of cough syrup . drowsiness and whatever shit .. but nope , im still coughing . hahas . are you sick ? if you are , it's best you go to the doctors rather than being like me .. cheers ! :)
gawdd .. it's gonna rain again , i wonder if it'll stop at 4+ .. cuz i'm starving and it's only going on 2pm ! i mean , i've gotta reach dhoby ghaut by 5pm , which means i'll have to be ready by 4.30pm , which means i'll have to start cooking at about 3pm ? lols .. i'm supposed to bike over .. that's why .. rwarr ~ hahas .. shall update on what i made later ! muacks ! take care babes and hunks ! i love and miss ya ! ^^
i miss you and your smile . ♥
been 4 days since i last blogged eh ? well , i guess all of these days i've just been out till day break .
mother havn't been willing to give me pocket money , all because i'm still jobless after one month of job hunt . well , i can't hurry the people out there you know , they ask me to wait , and yes , i've been waiting . but then one the other side , you just keep barking at me for waiting , umm .. are you sober ? it's just plain sickening to me . but then again , threats of throwing me out or not giving me pocket money ain't gonna work anymore my dear .. my guts grew . ;)
funny how i've been feeling emotional despite hanging out at night . i just said this few hours ago "night life tends to be less stressful because we come out to play , out to chill , there's no waiting and thus no frustration .. unlike the day , which is full of people around , waiting for empty seats or even time to meet ." yes yes , it might seem to be a little shitty , but no , i mean it . ain't that the obvious reason why clubbers tend to hang longer on the line of interest as compared to shoppers ? blehh ! whatever ~
i'm having jamming session later ! whoo ~ hope everything works out ! i've tried one whole bottle of pi pa gao and a bottle of cough syrup . drowsiness and whatever shit .. but nope , im still coughing . hahas . are you sick ? if you are , it's best you go to the doctors rather than being like me .. cheers ! :)
gawdd .. it's gonna rain again , i wonder if it'll stop at 4+ .. cuz i'm starving and it's only going on 2pm ! i mean , i've gotta reach dhoby ghaut by 5pm , which means i'll have to be ready by 4.30pm , which means i'll have to start cooking at about 3pm ? lols .. i'm supposed to bike over .. that's why .. rwarr ~ hahas .. shall update on what i made later ! muacks ! take care babes and hunks ! i love and miss ya ! ^^
i miss you and your smile . ♥
i love you like i always do.2:09 PM.
Wednesday, March 16
"LOVE WHEN YOU'RE READY , NOT WHEN YOU'RE LONELY" BY CEZS
hey im back to blogging ~ hahas . been away alot since the conflict cuz instead of using my lappy to online at night , i use my mobile phone to fb and text ! hahas . yep , it's about the same .. just that i don't get to camp on msn as i used to . so peeps , if you needa get me , just bomb me on ur short text message alright ?
so .. as i said earlier on , i've been rather sick these days and i had a real tough night yesterday , all because i was sick . you know , i have this emotional swing when i'm sick . i get real low , real negative , and i cried . it almost feel like as if nobody ever cares about my existence , nobody cares about what i do . but then again , i realize that there are people around me who bothers to text with me through the harsh times , some consoling me , some suggesting ways of easing my throat , some offering to wake me up for appointments tomorrow . thanks peeps . i'll always remember the conversations we've had ! don't go away just yet alright ? i want my turn to do the same thing back for you ! :D
and yes , having been sick , i didn't attend yet another interview today . i went to buy conditioner , shampoo , chocolate for my sis's bday , and pi pa gao ! hahas ! i realize someone likes pi pa gao too ! ^^ and i was suggested to finish one whole bottle .. but i'm too bloated already .. sorry . then again , i'm alot better le ! thank you ! :D AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER ! HURRY SLIM DOWN AND I'LL BRING YOU GO CLUBBINGG !!
so so so so .. now that i'm in the bad , i have homeworks to do ! hahas .. i've gotta listen to song covers to decide what kinda singing i'm gonna use for each of the songs .. so here are the song titles and the different song covers i've found ! enjoy ! :D
Original - Green Day's 21 Guns
Cover - 21 Guns
Original - We The Kings' Check Yes Juliet
Cover - Check Yes Juliet
Original - Bruno Mars' Grenade
Cover - Grenade
Original - Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are
Cover - Just The Way You Are
i'll be posting my cover vids when i'm ready so .. keep reading ! hahas .. or if wanna hear me live , catch me ! take care and i'll miss you always peeps ! ^^
when will i see you again ?
hey im back to blogging ~ hahas . been away alot since the conflict cuz instead of using my lappy to online at night , i use my mobile phone to fb and text ! hahas . yep , it's about the same .. just that i don't get to camp on msn as i used to . so peeps , if you needa get me , just bomb me on ur short text message alright ?
so .. as i said earlier on , i've been rather sick these days and i had a real tough night yesterday , all because i was sick . you know , i have this emotional swing when i'm sick . i get real low , real negative , and i cried . it almost feel like as if nobody ever cares about my existence , nobody cares about what i do . but then again , i realize that there are people around me who bothers to text with me through the harsh times , some consoling me , some suggesting ways of easing my throat , some offering to wake me up for appointments tomorrow . thanks peeps . i'll always remember the conversations we've had ! don't go away just yet alright ? i want my turn to do the same thing back for you ! :D
and yes , having been sick , i didn't attend yet another interview today . i went to buy conditioner , shampoo , chocolate for my sis's bday , and pi pa gao ! hahas ! i realize someone likes pi pa gao too ! ^^ and i was suggested to finish one whole bottle .. but i'm too bloated already .. sorry . then again , i'm alot better le ! thank you ! :D AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER ! HURRY SLIM DOWN AND I'LL BRING YOU GO CLUBBINGG !!
so so so so .. now that i'm in the bad , i have homeworks to do ! hahas .. i've gotta listen to song covers to decide what kinda singing i'm gonna use for each of the songs .. so here are the song titles and the different song covers i've found ! enjoy ! :D
Original - Green Day's 21 Guns
Cover - 21 Guns
Original - We The Kings' Check Yes Juliet
Cover - Check Yes Juliet
Original - Bruno Mars' Grenade
Cover - Grenade
Original - Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are
Cover - Just The Way You Are
i'll be posting my cover vids when i'm ready so .. keep reading ! hahas .. or if wanna hear me live , catch me ! take care and i'll miss you always peeps ! ^^
when will i see you again ?
i love you like i always do.5:54 PM.
SINCE 9 MARCH !
i've been more than alright for the past few days . having lotsa people to hang out with , meeting new people , making new friends . it's really relieving to create happy memories .
and people , i have a piece of good news .
ta-dah ! i'm in a band ! i had runs on sunday and monday , sunday was full minus the bass guitarist , then monday was acoustic with a friend of mine .
i'm thrilled but my throat's gaming on me . on sunday i had 2 hrs of prac , and 1 hr and 4 hrs on monday . sooooo .. yea , i'm in ! hahas .. let's hope i learn up the songs soon enough , and put in my flavoursssss ! whoo ~
and yes , this is the new song i feel moved by . take 4mins to listen to it k ? :)
hmms .. feelin alil down right now . tml's wednesday , i'm supposed to be out with Sun ! but at this rate im coughing and this stir of emotions im in , i really dunno who or where i could be .. kinda craving for care and concern .. gawddd ! i feel so sick ! tsk . ughhh ! im going off now . shan't talk about emo stuff here , ciaos ~
i miss your smile ..
i've been more than alright for the past few days . having lotsa people to hang out with , meeting new people , making new friends . it's really relieving to create happy memories .
and people , i have a piece of good news .
i'm thrilled but my throat's gaming on me . on sunday i had 2 hrs of prac , and 1 hr and 4 hrs on monday . sooooo .. yea , i'm in ! hahas .. let's hope i learn up the songs soon enough , and put in my flavoursssss ! whoo ~
and yes , this is the new song i feel moved by . take 4mins to listen to it k ? :)
hmms .. feelin alil down right now . tml's wednesday , i'm supposed to be out with Sun ! but at this rate im coughing and this stir of emotions im in , i really dunno who or where i could be .. kinda craving for care and concern .. gawddd ! i feel so sick ! tsk . ughhh ! im going off now . shan't talk about emo stuff here , ciaos ~
i miss your smile ..
i love you like i always do.12:55 AM.
Tuesday, March 15
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i love you like i always do.12:20 PM.
Tuesday, March 8
all in the blink of an eye .
chloe's running already !
xuehui's preggy already !
my sister's having probs with wisdom tooth already !
im job hunting already !
everything's happening like cars dashing by on the highway . i can't think of anything that's gonna stand still now . it's like everything's falling apart . hahas . i bet someone out there is enjoying the sight of me suffering .. i know just who you are . :)
are you a player or a lover ?
i asked many on formspring , and they said they'd be a player first , then a lover .. or that there's actually no difference of these two in their eyes . some say they wanna be a player then a lover so that they can sound if the other party's serious , while those who sees no difference .. i dunno about them .. lols ..
Yes . Silly girls , if he can leave you for her , what makes you think he won't leave you for another ?
and it's not a bruise , but a slit . it's gonna be a scar , not heal and look like the original .
hahas . i can't trust , can't love , can't think .. are you happy now ? lols ..
this phobia is maxing me out ~ whoo ~
chloe's running already !
xuehui's preggy already !
my sister's having probs with wisdom tooth already !
im job hunting already !
everything's happening like cars dashing by on the highway . i can't think of anything that's gonna stand still now . it's like everything's falling apart . hahas . i bet someone out there is enjoying the sight of me suffering .. i know just who you are . :)
are you a player or a lover ?
i asked many on formspring , and they said they'd be a player first , then a lover .. or that there's actually no difference of these two in their eyes . some say they wanna be a player then a lover so that they can sound if the other party's serious , while those who sees no difference .. i dunno about them .. lols ..
Yes . Silly girls , if he can leave you for her , what makes you think he won't leave you for another ?
and it's not a bruise , but a slit . it's gonna be a scar , not heal and look like the original .
hahas . i can't trust , can't love , can't think .. are you happy now ? lols ..
this phobia is maxing me out ~ whoo ~
i love you like i always do.12:37 PM.
people think my mind dusn really "ping" with my heart , but no .. it does .
i love you like i always do.10:32 AM.
Sunday, March 6
the hardest fall .
i still remember the first few songs you ever sang to me .. by my request - Daniel Wong's Promise (光良的约定) , and Gary Cao's Count to five , promise me (曹格的数到五，答应我) . i praised your singing just like anyone else would have ..
the first surprise you ever gave to me - chocolate milkshake . you told your dad you want two over the phone .. i didn't even suspect .. and we weren't even together yet .
the first present you ever bought for me - the studded doggie shirt . you bought yourself the bunny one , but you wore it only twice ..
the first time i cried for you - at your living room , on the third day of our rs , on the sofa , 15 mins to midnight .
i had my very first black colored ring , which we spent about an hour deciding , but the whole evening thinking about it .. between that black or silver one . you paid for it with your hard earned savings from working with your father .
you were the first to make me straw hearts , self-decorated the bottle .. all through the late night even when your friend was around ..
the first song you said was for us - Nicky Lee's Summer (李玖哲的夏天) .
the first song you've ever asked me for the song title after hearing from my psp - Faber Drive's When I'm With You .
the very first time we met - MCC . that was also where you had your first worst ktv session .. because we quarreled over you talking about gals and about her ..
the second time we met - at your house , mj .. and i was late cuz i went home to change ..
the first time you helped me - was at ur fren's house , cuz rj slipped off my mind . you walk me to 768 , and came to 768 to fetch me only 10mins in between .. that's how we exchanged number ..
the first time i met your clique of friends was at their bdae party bbq - we left early cuz i said you were busy .. cuz you were doing alot of cooking ..
i remember alot more .. how we quarreled and the very first time you said you wanna break up .. you were hitting the cupboard , feeling v angry .. another time was at my house when i threatened that if you were to leave , we'd be over .. the other time at bpp , and the last was over the phone just 11 days ago ..
we've been together for 100 days .. it's not the number that matters .. even if it were 97 or 36 , i'd still remember it .. all the rainy days or cold or warm nights we've spent hugging each other to sleep .. how you helped me celebrate my birthday at party world , along with you buddy and my gf , with that $22.80 chocolate cake you chose from Four Leaves .. you silly head .. you said you went to toilet , yet i heard your voice over sarah's phone .. lols .. it was sweet still .. i even remember you trying that leg massager , making me try while singing .. lols ..
the first nightmare you told me you had - i was kissing another guy at the void deck and you saw me , but you just walked away crying ..
the first time we chatted over the phone - from midnight till 4am ..
bits and pieces of everything .. i may not be right about the dates , but i remember .. how we had Fish & Co at IMM , and you footed the bill first ..
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the above were written on 1st of march 2011 , but i was interrupted by my mother . that night , horrible things happened . she was there .. nagging at me saying that her electricity bills had increased .
if you had been me , i haven't had time to really rot in front of my lappy for more than 5 hours 1st march and 28th feb . and the days before those two days , i was sleeping till noon , and out once i wake up . never was i home before 11pm everyday , and i sleep around 3am by mental exhaustion .
she sat on my bed , waiting for me to switch off my lappy , and i was bothered by the loss of privacy . so i asked her to go to bed , but she insisted and started arguing . so we hit off in disagreement , and there was alot of irritation and frustration in between . she slapped me on my head and arms , scratched me too . thn took my lappy out by force , and her hubby just hid it somewhere at the lift lobby .
my frustration maxed and breached with insanity .. and i thrashed the lappy fan and her usb mouse on the floor . she walked into the room , shocked by the pieces i've made , and she said "i won't feel good if i don't beat you up ." and thn she took the cables of my lappy charger and wacked my by my right arm , once , twice .. or was it afew times ? i couldn't bother .
all i know at that point of time was .. i wasn't the reason for the rise of electricity bills , she should know where she stands and what are her limits , and the more she tries to threaten me , the more i'm gonna stay firm on my decision .
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
all the other memories ..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
been going for interview the whole week .
and right now i'm dead tired and beat .
because i'm still jobless and i'm getting poorer and poorer as days goes by .
gavin called up yesterday , telling me about his achievements .
people at work thinks highly of him ,
colleagues at work feels good about him .
he found a new girl from audition ,
and they're rather close .
he'll be having better job offers ,
and definitely , a better lifestyle .
it's good . for him .
and i'm happy for him .
he told me that if i wanted to work ,
he could help me sound it out .
and that after i left ,
things changed dramatically for him .
it's good for you that you've achieved so much ,
walked and picked up so much .
you'll be fine on your own now ..
you won't be needing me anymore .
:
:
:
:
lols .. how silly could i ever be ?
sourness fills my heart as i listen to his voice speak ..
all i ever did was to breach his career and potential lover together ,
but never once would i try to bring myself up in his future .
i'm probably just gonna dissolve away just like that .
just like how i dissolved away in jerry's life .
i let go .
i gave up .
and this time , i screwed up ..
just as badly as you did ..
not sure if you would ever realize ..
but i guess it no longer matters ..
nothing stays forever ..
i still remember the first few songs you ever sang to me .. by my request - Daniel Wong's Promise (光良的约定) , and Gary Cao's Count to five , promise me (曹格的数到五，答应我) . i praised your singing just like anyone else would have ..
the first surprise you ever gave to me - chocolate milkshake . you told your dad you want two over the phone .. i didn't even suspect .. and we weren't even together yet .
the first present you ever bought for me - the studded doggie shirt . you bought yourself the bunny one , but you wore it only twice ..
i had my very first black colored ring , which we spent about an hour deciding , but the whole evening thinking about it .. between that black or silver one . you paid for it with your hard earned savings from working with your father .
you were the first to make me straw hearts , self-decorated the bottle .. all through the late night even when your friend was around ..
the first song you've ever asked me for the song title after hearing from my psp - Faber Drive's When I'm With You .
the very first time we met - MCC . that was also where you had your first worst ktv session .. because we quarreled over you talking about gals and about her ..
the second time we met - at your house , mj .. and i was late cuz i went home to change ..
the first time you helped me - was at ur fren's house , cuz rj slipped off my mind . you walk me to 768 , and came to 768 to fetch me only 10mins in between .. that's how we exchanged number ..
the first time i met your clique of friends was at their bdae party bbq - we left early cuz i said you were busy .. cuz you were doing alot of cooking ..
i remember alot more .. how we quarreled and the very first time you said you wanna break up .. you were hitting the cupboard , feeling v angry .. another time was at my house when i threatened that if you were to leave , we'd be over .. the other time at bpp , and the last was over the phone just 11 days ago ..
we've been together for 100 days .. it's not the number that matters .. even if it were 97 or 36 , i'd still remember it .. all the rainy days or cold or warm nights we've spent hugging each other to sleep .. how you helped me celebrate my birthday at party world , along with you buddy and my gf , with that $22.80 chocolate cake you chose from Four Leaves .. you silly head .. you said you went to toilet , yet i heard your voice over sarah's phone .. lols .. it was sweet still .. i even remember you trying that leg massager , making me try while singing .. lols ..
the first nightmare you told me you had - i was kissing another guy at the void deck and you saw me , but you just walked away crying ..
the first time we chatted over the phone - from midnight till 4am ..
bits and pieces of everything .. i may not be right about the dates , but i remember .. how we had Fish & Co at IMM , and you footed the bill first ..
--------------------------------------
the above were written on 1st of march 2011 , but i was interrupted by my mother . that night , horrible things happened . she was there .. nagging at me saying that her electricity bills had increased .
if you had been me , i haven't had time to really rot in front of my lappy for more than 5 hours 1st march and 28th feb . and the days before those two days , i was sleeping till noon , and out once i wake up . never was i home before 11pm everyday , and i sleep around 3am by mental exhaustion .
she sat on my bed , waiting for me to switch off my lappy , and i was bothered by the loss of privacy . so i asked her to go to bed , but she insisted and started arguing . so we hit off in disagreement , and there was alot of irritation and frustration in between . she slapped me on my head and arms , scratched me too . thn took my lappy out by force , and her hubby just hid it somewhere at the lift lobby .
my frustration maxed and breached with insanity .. and i thrashed the lappy fan and her usb mouse on the floor . she walked into the room , shocked by the pieces i've made , and she said "i won't feel good if i don't beat you up ." and thn she took the cables of my lappy charger and wacked my by my right arm , once , twice .. or was it afew times ? i couldn't bother .
all i know at that point of time was .. i wasn't the reason for the rise of electricity bills , she should know where she stands and what are her limits , and the more she tries to threaten me , the more i'm gonna stay firm on my decision .
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
all the other memories ..
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
been going for interview the whole week .
and right now i'm dead tired and beat .
because i'm still jobless and i'm getting poorer and poorer as days goes by .
gavin called up yesterday , telling me about his achievements .
people at work thinks highly of him ,
colleagues at work feels good about him .
he found a new girl from audition ,
and they're rather close .
he'll be having better job offers ,
and definitely , a better lifestyle .
it's good . for him .
and i'm happy for him .
he told me that if i wanted to work ,
he could help me sound it out .
and that after i left ,
things changed dramatically for him .
it's good for you that you've achieved so much ,
walked and picked up so much .
you'll be fine on your own now ..
you won't be needing me anymore .
:
:
:
:
lols .. how silly could i ever be ?
sourness fills my heart as i listen to his voice speak ..
all i ever did was to breach his career and potential lover together ,
but never once would i try to bring myself up in his future .
i'm probably just gonna dissolve away just like that .
just like how i dissolved away in jerry's life .
i let go .
i gave up .
and this time , i screwed up ..
just as badly as you did ..
not sure if you would ever realize ..
but i guess it no longer matters ..
nothing stays forever ..
i love you like i always do.12:37 AM.
