Monday, January 3
hi peeps .
current year didn't have a good start but i'm still gonna try to set things straight . today's the first day of school but i had only 3 hours of sleep . gawd .. can you imagine how desperate i am for a proper rest now ? but what i wish is probably impossible ..
i'm back to single now . it sucks because as i still wish us to be together but in your eyes (given your response) , i'm no better than a ferocious stubborn bitch . i have a really bad temper , i have actions when i'm talking , i tend to talk in a very firm tone , i grew up in a very different environment as compared to you - not to mention our habits .
he have selective hearing , he have a bad temper too . he's very egoistic and possessive , but i believe that's outta love , right ? he doesn't believe in "do onto others what you want others to do onto you" , and he bring up topics about my girlfriends very often - saying it's just a joke .
all these i'm stating is based what he told me , and what i observed . i did not mention about going back on your words , neither did i say anything about the reason we quarrel . still , all i have to say is that since you've given up on us , i wish you better luck .
i gave you the benefit of doubt .
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i went over to look for carol darling yesterday ! hahas . she was so nice to comfort me .. and then we motivated each other about realizing our dreams .. her mummy even made my dinner ! >.< so heartwarming . i love home cooked food ttm ! :D
carol really did alot of research man ! dang ! i wish i had that much of a knowledge for interior design or culinary . YES . CULINARY . i may not be a good cook , but im a good and quick learner ! xD don't doubt me okay ~
hmms .. these days , really gotta motivate myself and distract my mind .. i can't believe he had such a bad impression of me , bringing up only suffocating characteristics about me . i wish my friends could remind me what's good about me .. i'm so bombarded ale-dyy ar .. x_____X
but seriously , i know my sky . i know myself . BOTH good AND bad . BOTHWAYS . buddies , just help me a little alright ? i need a tad bit of confidence here ........ =,(
thanks for all the friends who cared about me ..
i love you like i always do.10:43 AM.
