Wednesday, December 29
was it you that caused all these ?
or was it just my narrow-mindedness ?
i wish someone could enlighten me .
is it so difficult to pay attention when someone's talking to you , and give a reasonable or relevant reply ?
is it not logical that you would want a reply ?
does sorry help if all you do after that was to repeat the mistakes ?
my patience ran thin . you're always grinding me with your fantasy talks or going about what you know or noticed about this or that girl . havn't you promised me before ? havn't you already said sorry about this a million times ?
i feel so insignificant whenever you just brush me aside , want to do things that makes you happy or create happy memories , but not wanting to clear up the mess you made . the broken pieces , still left lying there , how are you going to walk over it without getting hurt ? or perhaps , i was the one who had to walk over it that's why it won't hurt you , won't bother you ?
perhaps it's about time . she's single now , does that excite you ? anyway , it doesn't really bother me anymore because i can't really convince myself anymore . all you do is apologize about it now and bring it up again later . just like directing a knife into my heart , send me to the hospital , and later stab me again . what's this ? apologetic murderer ?
i'm still not as sarcastic or nasty as i can be right now . because part of me still yearns for you to ring me up , tell me you've waken up and would stop doing it already .. but .. is this real ? maybe it's just in my head . you'd always wanna be in the honeymoon period . you'd always wanna enjoy your youth . you say it's because it's still early , like as if it's not time for you to grow up yet . but no . it's more like you don't wanna grow up yet .
i'm at the end of my wits , all with a broken heart . you too ?
or was it just my narrow-mindedness ?
i wish someone could enlighten me .
is it so difficult to pay attention when someone's talking to you , and give a reasonable or relevant reply ?
is it not logical that you would want a reply ?
does sorry help if all you do after that was to repeat the mistakes ?
my patience ran thin . you're always grinding me with your fantasy talks or going about what you know or noticed about this or that girl . havn't you promised me before ? havn't you already said sorry about this a million times ?
i feel so insignificant whenever you just brush me aside , want to do things that makes you happy or create happy memories , but not wanting to clear up the mess you made . the broken pieces , still left lying there , how are you going to walk over it without getting hurt ? or perhaps , i was the one who had to walk over it that's why it won't hurt you , won't bother you ?
perhaps it's about time . she's single now , does that excite you ? anyway , it doesn't really bother me anymore because i can't really convince myself anymore . all you do is apologize about it now and bring it up again later . just like directing a knife into my heart , send me to the hospital , and later stab me again . what's this ? apologetic murderer ?
i'm still not as sarcastic or nasty as i can be right now . because part of me still yearns for you to ring me up , tell me you've waken up and would stop doing it already .. but .. is this real ? maybe it's just in my head . you'd always wanna be in the honeymoon period . you'd always wanna enjoy your youth . you say it's because it's still early , like as if it's not time for you to grow up yet . but no . it's more like you don't wanna grow up yet .
i'm at the end of my wits , all with a broken heart . you too ?
i love you like i always do.11:40 PM.
