Tuesday, December 14
i'll always love you like i always do ..
i no longer know what's there for me in you . i feel alot , think even more .. simply because there's no more assurance . don't say that i'm putting words in your mouth . that's just how i feel .
this is the only place i could write now .. i hope it's okay ..
mother says that she has to go for operation on 4th jan , and father's no longer there . he used to be the most promising guy , and i used to respect him .. and she used to be so healthy and happy , but now so many worries underneath .. how would next year be ?
this is a really rough year for me . i bump into so many crazy people (some for good reasons) , but others all with the wrong intentions .. now , the bond between us is so liquefied .. because bonds are between more than one , and one person can't control the bond by themselves . i'm so sorry for making this a mess . i shouldn't have let you in that night . i loved you far too much , even till now . the moments we've had together , the tears i've cried for you .. it's so endless but yet , visible .
i've never regretted being with you .. not at all . you made me feel happiness again , how to love and cry for someone .. but i really hope you could let go of your pride because sometimes , that's the reason we sparked off ..
you asked if my feelings faded and i said no . when i asked you back , you simply shut me out saying "don't ask" .. dear , talk to me will you ? tell me what's on your mind and what's your decision .. love is a two way thing .. please don't just be the questioner and me the answer-er alright ? i really love you but if leaving me is what you'd prefer ....
i no longer know what's there for me in you . i feel alot , think even more .. simply because there's no more assurance . don't say that i'm putting words in your mouth . that's just how i feel .
this is the only place i could write now .. i hope it's okay ..
mother says that she has to go for operation on 4th jan , and father's no longer there . he used to be the most promising guy , and i used to respect him .. and she used to be so healthy and happy , but now so many worries underneath .. how would next year be ?
this is a really rough year for me . i bump into so many crazy people (some for good reasons) , but others all with the wrong intentions .. now , the bond between us is so liquefied .. because bonds are between more than one , and one person can't control the bond by themselves . i'm so sorry for making this a mess . i shouldn't have let you in that night . i loved you far too much , even till now . the moments we've had together , the tears i've cried for you .. it's so endless but yet , visible .
i've never regretted being with you .. not at all . you made me feel happiness again , how to love and cry for someone .. but i really hope you could let go of your pride because sometimes , that's the reason we sparked off ..
you asked if my feelings faded and i said no . when i asked you back , you simply shut me out saying "don't ask" .. dear , talk to me will you ? tell me what's on your mind and what's your decision .. love is a two way thing .. please don't just be the questioner and me the answer-er alright ? i really love you but if leaving me is what you'd prefer ....
i love you like i always do.6:51 PM.
