Wednesday, November 17

ms. red came to find me this evening right after our dinner with mr. candy. gosh.. really made me gan jiong sia.. well, i guess i forgot when ms. red last came for a visit. wadeva ~

the night spent with mr. candy was really nice. we drank and sang, and i even saw how tipsy candy was. hahas.. silly candy, i miss you even when you're right beside me. how i wish morning would never come, or even, the evening after that wouldn't. cause just by the thought of having to bid goodbye bleeds me.

it was a comfortable day having you beside me and dressing so casually as we go out, as we chat and you patiently listened to how i would go on and on about my childhood. you'd tell me that you love me, almost every hour, but it always sounds like as if it's the last time you'd tell me, always feels like it's the last moments we'd be spending together. don't know what causes me to feel like it's the last instead of the first.. maybe because i fear that you'd never tell me you love me again.. hahas.. silly me..

i'm currently addicted to this song called ju gao zheng by lala. it was the first song candy shared with me, and though it wasn't a love at first, but as our first week pass, it because my favourite. it reminds me of how i slowly felt better after i know you, how i was saved from constant drowning of my own mental barrier, how each and every text and call of yours just makes me feel that love's a miracle, that fate's merciful and life being kind - all the good stuff can grow no matter how big the storm may be.

ps. he said he likes my smile wor ! >.<

i love you like i always do.8:20 PM.