Saturday, September 4
Old habits die hard.
3sept2010 ~4sept.morning
Mac with J.L was rather different from the past, as it always would be from now onwards. he'd not look at me when we eat and so i asked him about it and he just said "looking at you, i feel really weird.. you're not the same as you used to be anymore.. so i'd rather look elsewhere, because your voice is still the same then at least for a moment, i could still feel the sense of familiarity.." i later shared the plans i'm considering for my life after graduation, but the response i get was to give it up and settle down.
818 Playground meet up with buddies - R.Tham, BFF and Azz. Had a little chit-chat session with bubble teas, and then we went to F.Shang's jia to majong with auntyL and H. S and G came slightly later. i was like.. a typical loser last night.. TOTALLY OWNED!! owned by my organs, by gastric, by R.Tham because he won the most and i lost to all 3 sides, and H.Arakawa, who had guessed my tiles so well each and everytime.. but still, i enjoyed much.. thanks for being so gracious and generous kakis..
K called up and asked if i mia-ed and stuff.. well, all i can say is that i've told you what i wanted to say. believe it or not, what you do reflects alot whether im an option or priority to you. it's alright if you can't give up flirting around or anything but then again, you're old enough to know the consequences of your actions.
i'm not sure if i told everyone who was there last night but i definitely told those at the playground. well, that rules out S and G then. alot has been going through my mind since thurs night. E.Chow and C.Erh is now working as they have to pay their own expenses as well as school fees and they've been so busy having to juggle everything. the only difference between E.Chow and C.Erh is that E.Chow has rentals to pay because she's staying at her school hostel while C.Erh is still staying with her parents. and upon witnessing all that, i fear.. i fear because all the while, i havn't been a well-organised person, i don't follow timetables very well, my final plans are never identical to the initial ones and i'm afraid of being alone.. afraid of losing everyone i know..
yet i don't wish to give up just yet..
edit : i stayed home the rest of the day, fb-ing and trying to study, but still failed.
3sept2010 ~4sept.morning
Mac with J.L was rather different from the past, as it always would be from now onwards. he'd not look at me when we eat and so i asked him about it and he just said "looking at you, i feel really weird.. you're not the same as you used to be anymore.. so i'd rather look elsewhere, because your voice is still the same then at least for a moment, i could still feel the sense of familiarity.." i later shared the plans i'm considering for my life after graduation, but the response i get was to give it up and settle down.
818 Playground meet up with buddies - R.Tham, BFF and Azz. Had a little chit-chat session with bubble teas, and then we went to F.Shang's jia to majong with auntyL and H. S and G came slightly later. i was like.. a typical loser last night.. TOTALLY OWNED!! owned by my organs, by gastric, by R.Tham because he won the most and i lost to all 3 sides, and H.Arakawa, who had guessed my tiles so well each and everytime.. but still, i enjoyed much.. thanks for being so gracious and generous kakis..
K called up and asked if i mia-ed and stuff.. well, all i can say is that i've told you what i wanted to say. believe it or not, what you do reflects alot whether im an option or priority to you. it's alright if you can't give up flirting around or anything but then again, you're old enough to know the consequences of your actions.
i'm not sure if i told everyone who was there last night but i definitely told those at the playground. well, that rules out S and G then. alot has been going through my mind since thurs night. E.Chow and C.Erh is now working as they have to pay their own expenses as well as school fees and they've been so busy having to juggle everything. the only difference between E.Chow and C.Erh is that E.Chow has rentals to pay because she's staying at her school hostel while C.Erh is still staying with her parents. and upon witnessing all that, i fear.. i fear because all the while, i havn't been a well-organised person, i don't follow timetables very well, my final plans are never identical to the initial ones and i'm afraid of being alone.. afraid of losing everyone i know..
yet i don't wish to give up just yet..
edit : i stayed home the rest of the day, fb-ing and trying to study, but still failed.
i love you like i always do.5:16 PM.
