Thursday, September 30
the long train of thoughts.
am i not worth it all? how come your effort towards this is getting less visible, less sensual? when there's no more "morning darling.." and "imyt", you messages become lesser than usual and i get more and more prone to insecurity.
am i taking the wrong step again? i can't believe im feeling like a fool again. if i were to count the number of messages that comes in today as compared to yesterday, it's alot lesser, even the content is alot blander!! what is this supposed to mean? that i thought it all out and now im thinking it into something else again?
just what do you know bout me to tell me you love me? seriously, i try describing the kind of person you are to myself, in the mirror for example - tall, in ns, guy, busy with ns, tells me you miss me, tells me you love me, hardly have time for me.. AND NOTHING MORE. i don't even know exactly what you think?! omg.. just what am i putting myself into?? what are YOU putting yourself into??
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thoughts.. those were really lots of it..
after phoning and some texting, i guess i'm back to the same understanding : ns peeps are really busy.
some comfort i find in his texts were "what you confused about? tell me, i wanna noe.." and "orh.. meaning you want other guys ar?" hahas.. there's more actually, but just that it's stored on the other phone instead of the one im using now so..
18hours till i see you.
am i not worth it all? how come your effort towards this is getting less visible, less sensual? when there's no more "morning darling.." and "imyt", you messages become lesser than usual and i get more and more prone to insecurity.
am i taking the wrong step again? i can't believe im feeling like a fool again. if i were to count the number of messages that comes in today as compared to yesterday, it's alot lesser, even the content is alot blander!! what is this supposed to mean? that i thought it all out and now im thinking it into something else again?
just what do you know bout me to tell me you love me? seriously, i try describing the kind of person you are to myself, in the mirror for example - tall, in ns, guy, busy with ns, tells me you miss me, tells me you love me, hardly have time for me.. AND NOTHING MORE. i don't even know exactly what you think?! omg.. just what am i putting myself into?? what are YOU putting yourself into??
edit -------------
thoughts.. those were really lots of it..
after phoning and some texting, i guess i'm back to the same understanding : ns peeps are really busy.
some comfort i find in his texts were "what you confused about? tell me, i wanna noe.." and "orh.. meaning you want other guys ar?" hahas.. there's more actually, but just that it's stored on the other phone instead of the one im using now so..
18hours till i see you.
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
