Wednesday, September 1
down the memory lane and my past few days.
29aug (sunday) : i didn't do much that day.. merely rotted at home, crying about the stupid table.. and was later waiting for K to confirm with me if he's gonna watch movies with me but something happened, so it poof-ed. seriously, i couldn't be bothered if J hates me or not, probably afraid of E's comments if that's gonna affect K, but i swear the only person that mattered to me was him and him only..
30aug (monday) : it was a really sad day. argued with my mother again. it was like as if i was a devil within her, born and grown up, and thus she could never hide me anymore.. giving her the reason to hate me so much and quarrel with me so often. but then again, father solved it with mere concern and generosity - thanks my old blood, nobody could ever replace you.. DP asked if i wanna tag along for a holiday trip this weekend but im sorry, im outta cash, outta time, and outta choices. on top of that, i havn't been able to be like before with K and that really hurts. i have to focus on my studies now, really hard, and hopefully there's an easier way out, but in anyways, i missed him..
31aug (today) : visited sec skol with BC, S, R and V for my o level art prep and stuff but the adults simply told us that the field is outta bound to everyone till late sept so.. we'll be back then~ next stop was pri skol, and i bought coffee beans for my dear old buddies!! hahas.. loved them much much and am really grateful towards them for the few years there. it's been 7years since i graduated from pri skol already - time really flies. B and D was there today, no other familiar faces. B told me his inspiring story of how he ventured out for his dreams and proved his stand and dang!! i salute you, buddy!! i wish i wasn't that coward to just stringed with the triple nines that time but been determined enough to proved my stand. well, i still have a chance to do that don't i? in fact, now, i have more choices, and a clearer mind to think about it, not just with anger like 3years ago.
i guess everything happens for a reason, and i hope we do too.
29aug (sunday) : i didn't do much that day.. merely rotted at home, crying about the stupid table.. and was later waiting for K to confirm with me if he's gonna watch movies with me but something happened, so it poof-ed. seriously, i couldn't be bothered if J hates me or not, probably afraid of E's comments if that's gonna affect K, but i swear the only person that mattered to me was him and him only..
30aug (monday) : it was a really sad day. argued with my mother again. it was like as if i was a devil within her, born and grown up, and thus she could never hide me anymore.. giving her the reason to hate me so much and quarrel with me so often. but then again, father solved it with mere concern and generosity - thanks my old blood, nobody could ever replace you.. DP asked if i wanna tag along for a holiday trip this weekend but im sorry, im outta cash, outta time, and outta choices. on top of that, i havn't been able to be like before with K and that really hurts. i have to focus on my studies now, really hard, and hopefully there's an easier way out, but in anyways, i missed him..
31aug (today) : visited sec skol with BC, S, R and V for my o level art prep and stuff but the adults simply told us that the field is outta bound to everyone till late sept so.. we'll be back then~ next stop was pri skol, and i bought coffee beans for my dear old buddies!! hahas.. loved them much much and am really grateful towards them for the few years there. it's been 7years since i graduated from pri skol already - time really flies. B and D was there today, no other familiar faces. B told me his inspiring story of how he ventured out for his dreams and proved his stand and dang!! i salute you, buddy!! i wish i wasn't that coward to just stringed with the triple nines that time but been determined enough to proved my stand. well, i still have a chance to do that don't i? in fact, now, i have more choices, and a clearer mind to think about it, not just with anger like 3years ago.
i guess everything happens for a reason, and i hope we do too.
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
