Thursday, September 30
the long train of thoughts.
am i not worth it all? how come your effort towards this is getting less visible, less sensual? when there's no more "morning darling.." and "imyt", you messages become lesser than usual and i get more and more prone to insecurity.
am i taking the wrong step again? i can't believe im feeling like a fool again. if i were to count the number of messages that comes in today as compared to yesterday, it's alot lesser, even the content is alot blander!! what is this supposed to mean? that i thought it all out and now im thinking it into something else again?
just what do you know bout me to tell me you love me? seriously, i try describing the kind of person you are to myself, in the mirror for example - tall, in ns, guy, busy with ns, tells me you miss me, tells me you love me, hardly have time for me.. AND NOTHING MORE. i don't even know exactly what you think?! omg.. just what am i putting myself into?? what are YOU putting yourself into??
edit -------------
thoughts.. those were really lots of it..
after phoning and some texting, i guess i'm back to the same understanding : ns peeps are really busy.
some comfort i find in his texts were "what you confused about? tell me, i wanna noe.." and "orh.. meaning you want other guys ar?" hahas.. there's more actually, but just that it's stored on the other phone instead of the one im using now so..
18hours till i see you.
am i not worth it all? how come your effort towards this is getting less visible, less sensual? when there's no more "morning darling.." and "imyt", you messages become lesser than usual and i get more and more prone to insecurity.
am i taking the wrong step again? i can't believe im feeling like a fool again. if i were to count the number of messages that comes in today as compared to yesterday, it's alot lesser, even the content is alot blander!! what is this supposed to mean? that i thought it all out and now im thinking it into something else again?
just what do you know bout me to tell me you love me? seriously, i try describing the kind of person you are to myself, in the mirror for example - tall, in ns, guy, busy with ns, tells me you miss me, tells me you love me, hardly have time for me.. AND NOTHING MORE. i don't even know exactly what you think?! omg.. just what am i putting myself into?? what are YOU putting yourself into??
edit -------------
thoughts.. those were really lots of it..
after phoning and some texting, i guess i'm back to the same understanding : ns peeps are really busy.
some comfort i find in his texts were "what you confused about? tell me, i wanna noe.." and "orh.. meaning you want other guys ar?" hahas.. there's more actually, but just that it's stored on the other phone instead of the one im using now so..
18hours till i see you.
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
leavin all the descriptions behind..
he's someone i want to settle down with.
someone who adds meaning to my life with his smiles, takes my breath away with every look.. someone i could be myself with. he doesn't have to make me stay because i wouldn't wanna run anywhere else except to places where i could see him and for him, i would learn how to be a real lady, someone whom he can feel proud to fall in love with.
he knows why he should always hold me tight and will always tries his very best to be there for me. he might not be able to read my mind, but he will ask about it because he cares. he's patient and honest with me. our journey might not be smooth-sailing, but one thing i'm sure there'd be.. is understanding.
everyone's been hurt before and it doesn't matter what we've been because we'll truly love and love deeply. we will be what we want to be because we'll share a common believe - love makes us a better person.
i've been waiting for some time and though i did try to trust, it doesn't seem like it's working so.. i'm takin a step back for now..
he's someone i want to settle down with.
someone who adds meaning to my life with his smiles, takes my breath away with every look.. someone i could be myself with. he doesn't have to make me stay because i wouldn't wanna run anywhere else except to places where i could see him and for him, i would learn how to be a real lady, someone whom he can feel proud to fall in love with.
he knows why he should always hold me tight and will always tries his very best to be there for me. he might not be able to read my mind, but he will ask about it because he cares. he's patient and honest with me. our journey might not be smooth-sailing, but one thing i'm sure there'd be.. is understanding.
everyone's been hurt before and it doesn't matter what we've been because we'll truly love and love deeply. we will be what we want to be because we'll share a common believe - love makes us a better person.
i've been waiting for some time and though i did try to trust, it doesn't seem like it's working so.. i'm takin a step back for now..
i love you like i always do.11:25 AM.
Wednesday, September 29
a very slow and messy day..
i went over woodlands and met up with donald, sarah and her bf. in between i quarreled with my mother, had a little chat with bff's mummy, felt fat, craved and thought of giving up everything.
well, my mind's in a whirl. quarreled with my mum over some stupid vege issue. i was like "you didn't buy vege or cook vege, so i bought and cooked. shouldn't you at least return me some money?!" and she was like "nobody ask you to buy it~ im not gonna be like your father and let you claim your losses everytime you buy groceries!!" and then i went on and on about my her always saying our pocket money comes from my father, and that she's kind enough to give me $40 extra every month. the only stupid fact i can't understand coming out from her is this lil thing she says all the time "my husband is to support me, not you guys.. so your pocket money should be those coming from your OWN father!!" WTF??
and for the 100th time, i feel so uber stupid again!! i don't want to be the one writing sweet text messages for you when you never wrote any back for me can? i want to be able to stay away from the phone when you're urgently looking for me, long enough for you to run over my house to look me up, worried sick. im done being so underclass, so foolish and giving so much for someone i wanna be with but when it comes to counting the things he's done for me, im just twisting something outta nothing.
and im done being that stupid.
i went over woodlands and met up with donald, sarah and her bf. in between i quarreled with my mother, had a little chat with bff's mummy, felt fat, craved and thought of giving up everything.
well, my mind's in a whirl. quarreled with my mum over some stupid vege issue. i was like "you didn't buy vege or cook vege, so i bought and cooked. shouldn't you at least return me some money?!" and she was like "nobody ask you to buy it~ im not gonna be like your father and let you claim your losses everytime you buy groceries!!" and then i went on and on about my her always saying our pocket money comes from my father, and that she's kind enough to give me $40 extra every month. the only stupid fact i can't understand coming out from her is this lil thing she says all the time "my husband is to support me, not you guys.. so your pocket money should be those coming from your OWN father!!" WTF??
and for the 100th time, i feel so uber stupid again!! i don't want to be the one writing sweet text messages for you when you never wrote any back for me can? i want to be able to stay away from the phone when you're urgently looking for me, long enough for you to run over my house to look me up, worried sick. im done being so underclass, so foolish and giving so much for someone i wanna be with but when it comes to counting the things he's done for me, im just twisting something outta nothing.
and im done being that stupid.
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Tuesday, September 28
sweet tuesday.
just had a "quality time" over the phone with my botak!! super hayy-peyy~
it's been a long time since i went out with donald to somewhere around town and had fun doing silly stuff, just being ourselves. though there were lil perks where i got ignored or irritated, it was negligible because our friendship's that strong!! yea!!
Azz got ticked off by me today. you told me you needed the buddy system as your motivation but you smoked before i could even get things right. tsk. totally disappointed. the other thing about it was that you confided the long-assured doubt in me, and confirmed it. im sorry but i won't do the buddy thing anymore.
have i mentioned that i was envious about char bor's bf being really sweet on her wall and how evident his efforts were?? im not trying to comment but i want that from my bf too!! lols.. though i'll be single till this friday, i'm still gonna be a teeeeeeny weeeeny bit jealous. i'll get over the shits we've done to each other and look solely at what you're doing now ok baby?
with your greetings, even the darkest morning becomes the best morning.
just had a "quality time" over the phone with my botak!! super hayy-peyy~
it's been a long time since i went out with donald to somewhere around town and had fun doing silly stuff, just being ourselves. though there were lil perks where i got ignored or irritated, it was negligible because our friendship's that strong!! yea!!
Azz got ticked off by me today. you told me you needed the buddy system as your motivation but you smoked before i could even get things right. tsk. totally disappointed. the other thing about it was that you confided the long-assured doubt in me, and confirmed it. im sorry but i won't do the buddy thing anymore.
have i mentioned that i was envious about char bor's bf being really sweet on her wall and how evident his efforts were?? im not trying to comment but i want that from my bf too!! lols.. though i'll be single till this friday, i'm still gonna be a teeeeeeny weeeeny bit jealous. i'll get over the shits we've done to each other and look solely at what you're doing now ok baby?
with your greetings, even the darkest morning becomes the best morning.
i love you like i always do.11:39 PM.
Monday, September 27
clear off the shores..
i said something that hit two today.. it was something you guys have to know, something i had to say. when i said i'm gonna wait for someone's call, i meant someone special, someone i hold dear to me.
i also used that as a curfew for myself because i wanna be there for that someone? i just hope it's worth it.
anyway, i saw a friend's facebook wall spammed by her boyfriend so sweet, touching and nice. hahas.. i wonder if i could ever be with someone like that.. lols..
still, i'm very vexed.. about my msn, about bgr, and about jobs. i seriously need to get it all settled before tml but im damn tired today.. how??
:(
wall street review : about stock investmets, manupilations, lies and truths. with a pinch of romance in family and bgr involved, it's good!! :)
i said something that hit two today.. it was something you guys have to know, something i had to say. when i said i'm gonna wait for someone's call, i meant someone special, someone i hold dear to me.
i also used that as a curfew for myself because i wanna be there for that someone? i just hope it's worth it.
anyway, i saw a friend's facebook wall spammed by her boyfriend so sweet, touching and nice. hahas.. i wonder if i could ever be with someone like that.. lols..
still, i'm very vexed.. about my msn, about bgr, and about jobs. i seriously need to get it all settled before tml but im damn tired today.. how??
:(
wall street review : about stock investmets, manupilations, lies and truths. with a pinch of romance in family and bgr involved, it's good!! :)
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Saturday, September 25
the oblivious weekends.
it just passed like this, making me a sms freak. i had text msgs coming in from different people every few minutes, and whenever i replied late, i was bombarded with calls and burning questions almost reprimanding me about it.
still, only your text mattered to me.. i wanted to talk to you so badly, but i don't know how you feel about me.. i wanted to hear you tell me the things you used to tell me, but i can't change the fact that you're just too busy to even breathe or have sufficient rest.. really hope to hear from you soon..
baby i miss you..
it just passed like this, making me a sms freak. i had text msgs coming in from different people every few minutes, and whenever i replied late, i was bombarded with calls and burning questions almost reprimanding me about it.
still, only your text mattered to me.. i wanted to talk to you so badly, but i don't know how you feel about me.. i wanted to hear you tell me the things you used to tell me, but i can't change the fact that you're just too busy to even breathe or have sufficient rest.. really hope to hear from you soon..
baby i miss you..
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Friday, September 24
first and the last.
i went to hot tomato for my first day of work today. i arrived about 15mins early, changed and got ready on time. so they tasked me with these:
1) 2hours of flyer distribution with a2 sized banners hung on my shoulders, at somerset mrt station.
2) clearing the dishes and knowing the various locations of certain things
3) have an hour's break for twice
well, firstly, i've never been so dumb to take up a job that gives me 2hours of break within a 9hour schedule, on the otherhand, they're despicable. the lobby was fine, but it's like.. everybody's rushing here and there and you're askin me to hurry? are you being crappy or wad? i know i have to hurry, and im on my max alrdy, you're not even faster than me yet you wanna say that just because you've been working there longer? think pls..
the banner was the worst thing that ever happened. i felt so humiliated!! the slot i did was from 1200 to abt 1400, then again from 1730 to 1930. first slot was alright because those critics come out usually in the night yea? anyway, no offence.. just that there's a higher chance of bumping into someone i know, someone who might tease me, in the evening time..
those almost-cry experience.. thoughts.. wadeva you name it.. sucks!!
i went to hot tomato for my first day of work today. i arrived about 15mins early, changed and got ready on time. so they tasked me with these:
1) 2hours of flyer distribution with a2 sized banners hung on my shoulders, at somerset mrt station.
2) clearing the dishes and knowing the various locations of certain things
3) have an hour's break for twice
well, firstly, i've never been so dumb to take up a job that gives me 2hours of break within a 9hour schedule, on the otherhand, they're despicable. the lobby was fine, but it's like.. everybody's rushing here and there and you're askin me to hurry? are you being crappy or wad? i know i have to hurry, and im on my max alrdy, you're not even faster than me yet you wanna say that just because you've been working there longer? think pls..
the banner was the worst thing that ever happened. i felt so humiliated!! the slot i did was from 1200 to abt 1400, then again from 1730 to 1930. first slot was alright because those critics come out usually in the night yea? anyway, no offence.. just that there's a higher chance of bumping into someone i know, someone who might tease me, in the evening time..
those almost-cry experience.. thoughts.. wadeva you name it.. sucks!!
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Thursday, September 23
from the beginning till the end.
♥raspberry and chocolate chip
i felt really tortured not being able to see you guys.. well, at one point of time, there was only you. but now, i guess im done. i'll just observe a little longer i guess.
19th sept was spent slacking around Jurong Point with gf, B. oh yea!! we saw a book!!
kinda like a must-read kinda material but then, it's still under consideration.
20th sept (mon) : WJ, AZZ, auntyL and i majong-ed together from 1330 to 1930
21st sept (tues) : MOS-ed with J at Jurong Point, then met C for majong awhile.
22nd sept (wed) : majong-ed from 1500 to 1800, then slept till abt 2000, then bus home for dinner after loitering around cwp till 2100.
SO!! today, i went to Suntec for my first round of interview with my job agent QW from Gemini. then the second round with the employer at Somerset 313. after that, i just hopped from shop to shop, mall to mall.
im thankful J calls and texts me everyday, the other J always reassures me, K always showers me with love, the other K is always friendly to me. S and PY will never stop talking to me, D always feels me, A and WJ is always there to peii me thru those quieter times, and i don't know what more to say.. i've got so many nice people around me, life is just so much more than what i could expect.
GOOD NEWS : i've found a job!! yes.....it's still waitressing.. but it's $6.50 per hour!! :D
STORY BY AUNTY LILY : a girl dated a guy. on every date, he'd bring her to the temple to pray. never once did they missed that out from their schedule. she got sick of it and eventually broke up with him. then, she got together with another guy. this guy brings her to clubs and pubs everytime they hang out, really often. she really like and enjoyed it. she married this guy. marriage, to her, was settling down.. but this guy, never stopped clubbing.
so.. what aunty lily was trying to tell me was that while choosing a boyfriend, i have to be really careful if i treat them as my life long partners because what they do, how they behave.. all the way to their lifestyles, will affect me too.
STORY BY ANGELINA : a woman wanted to adopt a child. she was being introduced to angelina for consultancy and when they arrived at the adoption centre, the authorities looked through her profile and was puzzled. they asked "how come you're not working, for so many years, yet you have such huge sum of money?" the woman replied "im a mistress." feeling doubtful, she was further questioned and somewhere inbetween, she flared up and said "hey!! although i am a mistress, i have at least 3 landed properties at orchard, malaysia.. and even in UK!! you, with a proper job.. do you even have one of what i own?!"
morale of this story is that.. though she's not that brainy, she's definitely rich. reason being is that when she was much younger, she's very beautiful. so.. if you're not brainy, be pretty!! hahas.. just kidding.. XD
oh yea!! what's the difference between these two uh??
i'm starting work tml!! hope i can wake up on time.. hais.. how i wish i have morning calls and a hugger.. what is stopping all that?? :(
but i'm not gonna let you down.. darling wait and see..
♥raspberry and chocolate chip
i felt really tortured not being able to see you guys.. well, at one point of time, there was only you. but now, i guess im done. i'll just observe a little longer i guess.
19th sept was spent slacking around Jurong Point with gf, B. oh yea!! we saw a book!!
i thought this looked kinda funny so... heehees.. SHAVEDDD~
kinda like a must-read kinda material but then, it's still under consideration.
20th sept (mon) : WJ, AZZ, auntyL and i majong-ed together from 1330 to 1930
21st sept (tues) : MOS-ed with J at Jurong Point, then met C for majong awhile.
22nd sept (wed) : majong-ed from 1500 to 1800, then slept till abt 2000, then bus home for dinner after loitering around cwp till 2100.
SO!! today, i went to Suntec for my first round of interview with my job agent QW from Gemini. then the second round with the employer at Somerset 313. after that, i just hopped from shop to shop, mall to mall.
im thankful J calls and texts me everyday, the other J always reassures me, K always showers me with love, the other K is always friendly to me. S and PY will never stop talking to me, D always feels me, A and WJ is always there to peii me thru those quieter times, and i don't know what more to say.. i've got so many nice people around me, life is just so much more than what i could expect.
GOOD NEWS : i've found a job!! yes.....it's still waitressing.. but it's $6.50 per hour!! :D
STORY BY AUNTY LILY : a girl dated a guy. on every date, he'd bring her to the temple to pray. never once did they missed that out from their schedule. she got sick of it and eventually broke up with him. then, she got together with another guy. this guy brings her to clubs and pubs everytime they hang out, really often. she really like and enjoyed it. she married this guy. marriage, to her, was settling down.. but this guy, never stopped clubbing.
so.. what aunty lily was trying to tell me was that while choosing a boyfriend, i have to be really careful if i treat them as my life long partners because what they do, how they behave.. all the way to their lifestyles, will affect me too.
STORY BY ANGELINA : a woman wanted to adopt a child. she was being introduced to angelina for consultancy and when they arrived at the adoption centre, the authorities looked through her profile and was puzzled. they asked "how come you're not working, for so many years, yet you have such huge sum of money?" the woman replied "im a mistress." feeling doubtful, she was further questioned and somewhere inbetween, she flared up and said "hey!! although i am a mistress, i have at least 3 landed properties at orchard, malaysia.. and even in UK!! you, with a proper job.. do you even have one of what i own?!"
morale of this story is that.. though she's not that brainy, she's definitely rich. reason being is that when she was much younger, she's very beautiful. so.. if you're not brainy, be pretty!! hahas.. just kidding.. XD
oh yea!! what's the difference between these two uh??
i'm starting work tml!! hope i can wake up on time.. hais.. how i wish i have morning calls and a hugger.. what is stopping all that?? :(
heehees.. me in my mum's shirt.. XD
but i'm not gonna let you down.. darling wait and see..
i love you like i always do.6:42 PM.
Saturday, September 18
the world isn't small..it's just singapore.
17sept2010
watched i love you too with M in the evening. the movie was nice and entertaining.. touching too. liked!! we saw models on the runway while we were on the way there.. it's my first time witnessing such stuff!! >.< hope i get to organize such stuff in future.. :X
hahas.. then buddy texted and say he wanna go club see see, but guess he lost his feeling by the time i finished my movie. yet i had alrdy confirmed the meet up with J, so i had to meet him up lor..
bump into K at rebel, so happen that J's friend is also K's friend.. small world lahs.. kena suan.. then i hav to explain the whole story again. J sent me home after that, was a really nice and caring buddy. his friends were really nice, cute, sexy and friendly. there was so many people he know down at the dance floor ytd.. kinda scary.
the big decision. im gonna quit clubbing, not even on my 21st.
edit:18th sept 2010----------------
i stayed home the whole day till J came down to meet me up after my show, Ghost Whisperer.
well, im quiting it.. and this is already day 1, a saturday night. DON'T BLINK!
:)
17sept2010
watched i love you too with M in the evening. the movie was nice and entertaining.. touching too. liked!! we saw models on the runway while we were on the way there.. it's my first time witnessing such stuff!! >.< hope i get to organize such stuff in future.. :X
hahas.. then buddy texted and say he wanna go club see see, but guess he lost his feeling by the time i finished my movie. yet i had alrdy confirmed the meet up with J, so i had to meet him up lor..
bump into K at rebel, so happen that J's friend is also K's friend.. small world lahs.. kena suan.. then i hav to explain the whole story again. J sent me home after that, was a really nice and caring buddy. his friends were really nice, cute, sexy and friendly. there was so many people he know down at the dance floor ytd.. kinda scary.
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| me and sweetie sun!! >.< |
the big decision. im gonna quit clubbing, not even on my 21st.
edit:18th sept 2010----------------
i stayed home the whole day till J came down to meet me up after my show, Ghost Whisperer.
well, im quiting it.. and this is already day 1, a saturday night. DON'T BLINK!
:)
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Thursday, September 16
wednesday is not ladies night.
for the first time, i pon-ed clubbing. cuz JY had some last minute crop ups, then left just me and HH.. so i thought it'd be better to just call off the whole thing. on the other hand, my heart ran away with the idea of overnight majong so.. yea, my night was spent majong-ing instead of clubbing.
more and more things went thru my head as the night grows older.. some was filtered, some was left over. but what i couldn't understand most was the final decision i had to make.
but no matter what those decisions were, i know my feelings were real and it was something you never knew.. not because you didn't want to, but because i didn't dare to. i was too afraid to let down my defense, too afraid of what might become of us if i were to take that risk.
he's someone i want to settle down with.
someone who adds meaning to my life with his smiles, takes my breath away with every look.. someone i could be myself with. he doesn't have to make me stay because i wouldn't wanna run anywhere else except to places where i could see him and for him, i would learn how to be a real lady, someone whom he can feel proud to fall in love with.
he knows why he should always hold me tight and will always tries his very best to be there for me. he might not be able to read my mind, but he will ask about it because he cares. he's patient and honest with me. our journey might not be smooth-sailing, but one thing i'm sure there'd be.. is understanding.
everyone's been hurt before and it doesn't matter what we've been because we'll truly love and love deeply. we will be what we want to be because we'll share a common believe - love makes us a better person.
if i kept wanting you, then i'd be really selfish. if i kept avoiding, i'm gonna fall really sick.. but above all my feelings stands only your happiness, the extraordinary events it became each time i catch you smiling.
unpleasant stay home thursday------------
my folks cranked again. it was all the same old lines except this time, my mum was more dramatic. she banged her head against the wall, and too, smoked. when i stopped her from banging the wall, she tried to bite her tongue; when i stopped her from smoking, she simply got so fed up she ceased the burning using the sole of her feet. totally sick and frustrating.
i know she's trying to gain attention from her hubby and test if he'd feel aches in his heart but all these, was just too much for us to witness, let alone for her to suffer.
i just feel so sick looking at the drama even though i know exactly how she felt. i just felt so helpless.. even sis cried outta heartache..
seriously, i don't know what to say..
for the first time, i pon-ed clubbing. cuz JY had some last minute crop ups, then left just me and HH.. so i thought it'd be better to just call off the whole thing. on the other hand, my heart ran away with the idea of overnight majong so.. yea, my night was spent majong-ing instead of clubbing.
more and more things went thru my head as the night grows older.. some was filtered, some was left over. but what i couldn't understand most was the final decision i had to make.
but no matter what those decisions were, i know my feelings were real and it was something you never knew.. not because you didn't want to, but because i didn't dare to. i was too afraid to let down my defense, too afraid of what might become of us if i were to take that risk.
he's someone i want to settle down with.
someone who adds meaning to my life with his smiles, takes my breath away with every look.. someone i could be myself with. he doesn't have to make me stay because i wouldn't wanna run anywhere else except to places where i could see him and for him, i would learn how to be a real lady, someone whom he can feel proud to fall in love with.
he knows why he should always hold me tight and will always tries his very best to be there for me. he might not be able to read my mind, but he will ask about it because he cares. he's patient and honest with me. our journey might not be smooth-sailing, but one thing i'm sure there'd be.. is understanding.
everyone's been hurt before and it doesn't matter what we've been because we'll truly love and love deeply. we will be what we want to be because we'll share a common believe - love makes us a better person.
if i kept wanting you, then i'd be really selfish. if i kept avoiding, i'm gonna fall really sick.. but above all my feelings stands only your happiness, the extraordinary events it became each time i catch you smiling.
unpleasant stay home thursday------------
my folks cranked again. it was all the same old lines except this time, my mum was more dramatic. she banged her head against the wall, and too, smoked. when i stopped her from banging the wall, she tried to bite her tongue; when i stopped her from smoking, she simply got so fed up she ceased the burning using the sole of her feet. totally sick and frustrating.
i know she's trying to gain attention from her hubby and test if he'd feel aches in his heart but all these, was just too much for us to witness, let alone for her to suffer.
i just feel so sick looking at the drama even though i know exactly how she felt. i just felt so helpless.. even sis cried outta heartache..
seriously, i don't know what to say..
i love you like i always do.11:24 PM.
Tuesday, September 14
the shock labyrinth house of horror - 3d, with free flow of popcorn.
seriously, i won't ever do this again. firstly because 3d doesn't work unless you're sitting in the middle chunk, and the complimentary privilege of having free flow popcorn isn't that great either. needless to say, the movie wasn't scary at all.
my say : FAIL.
am really sorry to keep you waiting, buddy. from 5pm to 6.. not only were you waiting, you helped us buy the tix too!! beyond apologies buddy.. TIRAMISU was there too!! heehees.. super happy to have met up with her.. our dinner was rather rush, so i had some desserts.
trust is nothing when evidence is the key.
seriously, i won't ever do this again. firstly because 3d doesn't work unless you're sitting in the middle chunk, and the complimentary privilege of having free flow popcorn isn't that great either. needless to say, the movie wasn't scary at all.
my say : FAIL.
am really sorry to keep you waiting, buddy. from 5pm to 6.. not only were you waiting, you helped us buy the tix too!! beyond apologies buddy.. TIRAMISU was there too!! heehees.. super happy to have met up with her.. our dinner was rather rush, so i had some desserts.
trust is nothing when evidence is the key.
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
Monday, September 13
buddy and i met up after our final paper, and went to eat at Mac. seriously i need to stop it.. just because it's convenient, doesn't mean i can allow myself to have it every week.. this is too much!! i'll bump back to what i was a year ago if i carry on like this.. and i dowan that!!!!!!!!
anyway, i was thinking if i should cut my hair so.. after cutting, buddy peii me go home, and waited for me to change and head down to jurong point but unfortunately, it was too late by the time im done and buddy gotta rush home to do housework so.. i headed to bugis, where i got scammed off my dinner..
there.. from the mixed vegetable stall whatever it's name was, but this.. cost me $6.70.. BOOOOOMM!! i swear i'll never buy a shit from them anymore, ever again.
i bought a black dress for this coming wednesday, and also, a white blouse for tomorrow.. hahas.. HOPE I DON'T LOOK TOO AUNTY~ >.<
age is catching up on me.. im turning 20 soon.. in less than 4month's time. i really don't know if i can handle it. my birthday itself is a friday, so i guess i can club it away~!! hahas.. anyway, i've been thinking how i can dress like 20 year old, what kinda life i wanna lead, what kinda person i wanna be but then again, the two opposite extremes can never come together and be in one person can it?
i crave for tattoos, but then again, i lust for fair white skin. i'm keen to get piercings, but then again, i don't know how to put elegance and piercings together.. so.. yea.. im stuck..
i love you like i always do.11:59 PM.
