Saturday, August 28
when anaesthesia fades..
i can hardly smile right now. they just got me so ever speechless.. and i don't know what to say anymore.
after so many encounters of affection, i feel like a badly injured soldier at war, realizing that i'm helpless and not able to fight for my happiness, not able to go anywhere from here right now. and like how anyone else would feel when they're about to die, i don't wish to be alone.. i yearn to lie in the arms of my lover, have him tell me it's all gonna be okay.. and just weep quietly till i pass away..
i feel utterly lost right now. i can no longer act like as if nothing went wrong, can no longer speak with confidence. i am just as honest as i can be, as hurt as how you can feel when anaesthetic fades, dumb as if my brain had failed to think even defensively, quiet as if i was mute.. just quietly thinking of all the things that adds up together, being alone on my bed, swallowing it all up. feels kinda sick, don't i?
are you happy now?
i can hardly smile right now. they just got me so ever speechless.. and i don't know what to say anymore.
after so many encounters of affection, i feel like a badly injured soldier at war, realizing that i'm helpless and not able to fight for my happiness, not able to go anywhere from here right now. and like how anyone else would feel when they're about to die, i don't wish to be alone.. i yearn to lie in the arms of my lover, have him tell me it's all gonna be okay.. and just weep quietly till i pass away..
i feel utterly lost right now. i can no longer act like as if nothing went wrong, can no longer speak with confidence. i am just as honest as i can be, as hurt as how you can feel when anaesthetic fades, dumb as if my brain had failed to think even defensively, quiet as if i was mute.. just quietly thinking of all the things that adds up together, being alone on my bed, swallowing it all up. feels kinda sick, don't i?
are you happy now?
i love you like i always do.12:24 PM.
